[Part I]

[Intro]
Mm, 7:45 on a Tuesday
Sun just went down, cars passing by
Room's darker
Hmm, uh

[Verse 1]
My job as a role model is to guide y'all to the light
I know lately I been talkin' 'bout the downside of life
I notice now as a big brother to so many motherfuckers who look up to me, I gotta give y'all different advice
See, my mind wasn't right
And in the heat of the moment, I wrote a song that might influence y'all to act out of spite
My homie Jay probably worried about me, I know Mark definitely confused after the countless times I told him, "Live life"
But, it all changed one night
On March 26th, at 12:36, wе met a man named Fifth in Brooklyn
Ock was in the back cookin' up, wе just got done cookin'
We was hungry, but wound up consumin' something a lil' different
Feedin' his knowledge as if we were his own children
Spittin' the way of life and the key to be free living
A man incarcerated, but educated, speaking words that I must relate 'cause they definitely resonated
He told me, "The past is depression, the future is stress
Just live in the moment, breathe a bit, catch your breath"
He said very few words, but what he said was the best
'Cause I don't remember the last time my mental health needed a check
I don't remember why I was stressin' over some rest
I don't remember why I was stressin' over my checks
I don't remember the feeling of being depressed and bringing my existence to a stop 'cause I'm fucking a mess
We got too much to live for, man, we're one in the same
Life's a game, play your part so you don't sink through the grain
Now that I'm sane, I see how people can be fake
When me and Liam nearly got kicked off the train for simply preaching our pain
I thank Gee for standing up for us, I'm glad that he came
Real recognize real, so let the lesson be told
It's hard enough being a man and have the hurt on your own
So if you need me, give me a call when you can't be alone
[Part II]

[Verse 2]
Shit, I can't be alone
Too much hurt when I look at my phone
No point in a conversation when I recognize emotions through simple change in your tone
I've done way too much to grow and I've overcome so much, I know
I hold so much in my throat, I've dealt with too many A-holes
For once in my life, I'm not taking that shit anymore, no more digging a hole
You cannot silence my voice
I will resort to violence, you leave me no choice
I'm not fading away, I got too much to do for my boys in a short nick of time and I'm bringing the noise
I'm not fading away, I'm not fading away
Life been feeling too good, I got paid yesterday
I don't care what a motherfucker say
I'ma change the whole game in a way that they'll pray in my name
When I die, I know you'll be okay, just hold out your arms when you singing my song
Not sure if I'll be here too long, just carry the legacy out through the words of my mom
My daughter gonna love her mom
If she ever ask about daddy, just tell her that I wasn't strong enough to carry on
I've done too much carrying, all this baggage is the sadness
I just lost my brother, the madness is killing me slowly
Why the fuck did kid have to OD?
I can't keep holding on to the homies who wanna give up
I don't give a fuck if it's my last day and I go out in a sad way
I'm just tired of bad days, motherfuckers be mad fake
I'm stuck in my past ways