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あこがれ / Akogare ‘Admiration’ English Translation
Constantly repeating flashbacks and days
I was clinging to an ideal somewhere, not here
The time that has ended is
Today has become an unfinished day

Hey, there's such a thing as being tall
Hey, it’s important to give up too
A life that is impossible, boring and impossible
Are you grateful?

Hey, only a handful are rewarded
Hey, normal is the happiest
The more I mistake excuses for comfort
I'm feeling down, ahh

Admiration is cruel
Because it will remain bеautiful forever
The furthеr away I get, the more I want to get closer
Probably not

By the time I realized the shockingly simple and obvious answer
It was a little night
After that, it just got dark

...
For those who suddenly want to mix in with the sound of hands
It's more comfortable to sing to someone
Wait until you’re stuck, have you seen that?
Don't do anything, just say it

I found out the morning after I finished drying my shirt
That the faded color will never return
Ink from a pen that was thrown away before it was used up
I regret it now

Hey, don't turn the hands at midnight
Hey, don't say lightly that it's a do-over
I want to go forward, I want to go back, I want to stop
I don't even know which one I want to choose

Hey, the world isn't that kind
Hey, there's no point in just going through the trouble
You are the one who was able to divide by allocation
We can’t understand each other, it’s enough

...

Admiration is cruel
Because it will remain beautiful forever
On days when the sunlight filtering through the trees blooms, and on rainy days that wash the city
You'll remember
My heart is tied into as many knots as it is broken
Even if it gets tangled and looks awkward
Let’s connect
Someday

When I'm in the middle of writing an afterword and looking back on the days I've written down
Start writing from “that time”
Wouldn't it be stupid if we just talked about what-ifs?

It’s shockingly low
Even if it ends badly
That's fine
That's okay though

I want to dream