{Intro]
Ohh
(Hydreted This Shit Wavy)

{Verse 1}
Where was everybody when I needed help today?
I give signs every day, but I'm by myself okay?
Nobody every asking me if I'm okay
I tell 'em that I'm fine, then they walk away
Stuck up in my feelings I don't know what to say, aye
Stressed out so much and everybody in the way, hey
Wish time would slow down, give me time to wa-aste
Everybody in my face, wish they'd give me space
I contradict every fucking word I say
I'm addicted to the drugs at a young age
Everyday I wake up stuck on the same page
Put this shit here so I ain't gotta say it out loud

{Chorus]
I'm having a breakdown...
They tell me they love me, but I'm the one that they hate now
Friends say its okay, I know that they fake now
Family lying to my face, I ain't feeling safe now
I feel better when I'm high, I'm getting baked now
People talk behind my back they ain't say it to my face, wow
Every girl I loved hurt me, there's still one I ain't found
Yeah I gotta get all of this shit out
{Verse 2]
I'm alone again
I lost all my friends
I'm stuck in my head
Every day I'm still feeling dread
From the day you left
Yeah it's evident
I'm not over it
I been over it, yeah
Thought the answer was
I need fucking drugs
'Cause I loved when all that shit fucked me up
Then I thought it was love
Stayed away from drugs
Thought it'd be enough
But I can't ever get enough
I can't get enough
That ain't good enough
I ain't good enough
I was never good enough
Suicidal fuck, don't you see my wrists are cut?
But no one seems to give a fuck
I guess I done run outta luck, yea

[Verse 3}
Like I'm tryna start all over again
Can't get the thought of you outta my head
Takin all these pills, going straight to my head
Wish you could take back all the words you said
Said you hate me, thought I misread
Now I'm hoping, I end up dead
I feel so dead, I was misled
You left me on read
Left me here with all this fear, in my head
Now I'm getting too lost in my regrets
I got bad habits, I'm tryna break them
I ain't nothing special, I'll tell you once again
These chains ain't gonna weigh me down that's gonna change
Sick of all these hoes tryna play me like a game
I just wanna be free
I'm sick of all these days, yea
[Verse 4]
You ain't never there for me, bitch Ion need you
Left me in the cold now the wine glasses see-through
See-through like Casper, yea
She a jet with no pilot, she a plane crasher
I could tell from the start this was a disaster
Demons catching up to me I need to run faster
Devil tryna talk to me, I think I need a pastor
Tired of all the talk and the fucking chitter-chatter
Spray paint and plaster
Feel like a vandal
Imma light that shit up, blow that shit out like a candle
Every day's a battle its too hard to handle
People asking questions, but I don't have an answer
All my life I prayed to God, I haven't got an answer
Sometimes I wonder if he's even up there
Getting lost in my mind, feeling lost like I'm Hansel
People telling me they hate me I don't understand though

[Verse 5]
They tell me Imma loser
Tell me Imma cheater
Tell me I'm just a person, that's thinking that I'm worth it
Everybody around me, telling me I'm worthless
I don't give a fuck yea they leaving me broken
Tell me Imma hater
Tell me Imma faker
Ion wanna talk, keep to myself all my thoughts yea
Keep them in my head wall-to-wall with the door locked
I've been taking all these pills I ain't gonna stop
[Verse 6}
I need to slow down on these fuckin pills
I don't know how you held me down for real
Am I gonna be okay or is it just a feel?
I don't know what's fake or real
I'm in my feels and I don't know what's real
Been taking pills, I been making these deals
So do what you will make me go insane
Fuck every single thing up in my brain
Say they feel the same, but they don't feel the pain
In the way that I'm feelin' it every single day
But the game has changed better stay out the way
I work my ass off, everyday to get paid

[Verse 7}
Wanna talk to somebody, but nobody there
Maybe it's just because nobody cares
I don't play by the rules 'cause I know they ain't fair
I look up to God whenever I get scared
I don't wanna feel anything anymore
I just wanna pop pills till I hit the floor
She gotta new mans every week, what a whore
Keep thoughts to myself, well here they are

[Verse 8]
I'm done with all the lies, I just wanna be free
All my feelings locked inside 'cause I lost the fucking key
Walk alone in my life 'cause ain't nobody there for me
Finally come to realize, I'm not who I wanna be
Roll up and light, all this smoke in my lungs I can't breathe
You can't hide what's inside, I gotta beast inside of me
Down the Henny go blind that's the real side of me
That I try to hide 'cause I don't want no one to hurt me
Pain in my eyes all my demons take control of me
Everyday getting high addiction isn't new to me
Poppin pills every night just to help me fall asleep
Wake up in the morning Gustav I don't hear a Peep
Lost a lotta legends in the past years R.I.P
Lost all of my brothers 'cause they stopped texting me
Thought they had my back now I tell them, "Stay away from me"
Got trust issues worse now than they were three years ago
Traumatized by my past keep me on my toes
My PTSD fucked me up for sure
Gotta learn to move on I gotta let it go, yea
(Yea)

[Verse 9]
Gotta let it go like its Frozen
People judge me by my shoes and clothes that I'm in
Gotta wear the best everyday just for showing
Can't just be myself and nobody know it
Don't do this all the time so my feelings get to flowing
My life was pretty shit, 'fore I met you I was broken
Poppin' all the bars, all the drugs I was smokin'
Just to keep the pain away, no guns I was totin'
Kept 'em locked away, so I didn't pull the trigger on my skull, yea
Had so many problems in my family it was hopeless
Lost a lot of friends to a couple overdoses
Then I overdosed yea I ain't even jokin'
Nobody knew about it except me and all my bros, yea
Kept it on the low, yea
Took a couple years just to feel like I was sober
Then I lost my fuckin idol to an overdose, yea
R.I.P. to Juice WRLD, I need to let go, yea
I'm fucked up off the dope, yea

[Verse 10]
I got money in my hand, then the wind get to blowin'
Kick this shit off soon as I get going
Off the fucking pills, my brain start slowin'
Can't stop drinking, so the lean I'm pourin'
Feel like this everyday, shit's so boring
Bout to pass out, go to sleep, I'm snoring
Get the pass off, touchdown, McLaurin
Losing every second, I ain't good at scoring
Put the pedal to the motherfucking medal, floor it
If you talking bout the drugs, I'm all for it
Speaking of, drugs fucked me up, ignore it
You ain't see the shit I do behind closed doors
It ain't worth to tell me stop therapy ain't working
Hate the way it make me feel 'cause I'm already hurting
Shows already over, it's time to close the curtains

[Chorus]
I'm having a breakdown...
They tell me they love me, but I'm the one that they hate now
Friends say its okay, I know that they fake now
Family lying to my face, I ain't feeling safe now
I feel better when I'm high, I'm getting baked now
People talk behind my back they ain't say it to my face, wow
Every girl I loved hurt me, there's still one I ain't found
Yeah I gotta get all of this shit out