ZEDNED
July
Brown hair that lightens up as the sun shines bright
His hazel eyes that twinkle under the moonlight sky
His smile that makes me happy long for a while
Maybe this is love right?

I asked you to be mine but you said I wasn’t your type
So I went to ‘love’ someone else
But that didn’t turn out quite right
As you are the one I can’t stop thinking about all night
I could never stop loving you even if i told myself to
There is not much I can do

I just want it to be you and me
That’s all i ever dream
Me and you as a team
That’s all i ever want to see
Been this way since July
Over this fucking guy

He was too scared to be himself
That he kept all his feelings
That it fucked up his mental health
Me on the other hand
Had a whole other plan
Where pain became a necessity
And blood kept dripping onto my knees
I kept crying all night
Kept wondering if I am right
I hate myself so much
I want to feel your fucking touch
But I won’t
As I’m not enough
I asked you to be mine but you said I wasn’t your type
So I went to ‘love’ someone else
But that didn’t turn out quite right
As you are the one I can’t stop thinking about all night
I could never stop loving you even if i told myself to
There is not much I can do

I just want it to be you and me
That’s all i ever dream
Me and you as a team
That’s all i ever want to see
Been this way since July
Over this fucking guy

When you say that three letter word at your vows
I hope you remember who always wanted to be around
I don’t want you to be in pain about me
I just want you to understand how badly you affected me
I was too good at covering the pain up
But by the time I realised
My love life will forever be fucked