[Verse 1]
A put the barrel to my head and send a text to my mother
I'd be better off dead (Bang)
The message' said
Reggie text me back saying that I'm not sense
I hate her back
Mama, I think that I've fucking lost it
Got some pills in my system and some liquor down my throat
I'm not playing the victim, I hate being on my road
She trying call me now but I won't answer my phone
Sweat running down my head, losing feeling in my toes
Shaking from my nerves but I won't drop that gun
Time to take my fucking life, I swear to got that I'm done
Hand slippеd and it answered the phonе-
I can hear it saying; "Please! Parker don't go!"
Now's you time to fucking leave, it's time to take a breath
Parker just breathe
Five minutes away, can you please wait for me
My mother's so numb, I can't say no words to her
It hurts even more because I know my worth to her
I know I'm selfish for deserting her
But I can't tell if it's worse for her, or if it's worse for me
I take it to the floor, let them fucking search for me
Got my shoes tied, dirty Nike's on my feet
Pills are finally kicking in, I can barely see
I open upped my mind, my thoughts started to flee
Cause' the pain that started this will be over for me
I hope it will be over for me
[Chrous]
I've been feeling lonely, lately
What if I go?
Will I find peace for me? Maybe-
Last letter that I wrote
Last letter that I wrote

[Verse 2]
Walking along the train tracks alone again
Got my girl on the phone again
This shit you can't take back, now I'm losing hope again
Memoires play back, I just don't know how to cope with them
Tell her that I'm tryna' keep my head up but I'm fed up and-
I can hear the voice inside that tells me to get up and-
Because of her, that I'm tryna' hold it together
My body folding as I'm holding this phone and writing my final letter
Now she's crying and screaming tryna' believe it
I feel like I'm dying, I'm leaving
My knuckles hurt from all the punching, I've been fighting my demons
Now she's running like she's never done, trying to breathe and-
No rush babe, it's something that I'm done with
I've thought about this many times; how I'm fuckingc nothing
And I don't see no love and, I look around-
I look around for something to remind me to stick around but I see nothing so fuck it
(Fuck it, fuck it)
Now she's tryna' talk me out of it
Screaming, calm down
There's other ways to go about it
"Sorry, I didn't believe you", why would I ever doubt it?
I'm coming over now, there no way to ever stop it
Nah-
Sitting in my hoodie
Sweat is pouring and I'm nervous
Think of what I could be if everything was more perfect
Should I take the leap of faith? There's no reason why I shouldn't
In this world, I see and believe in what I couldn't
[Outro]
Damn, we almost didn't put through
And if we didn't me and Parker wouldn't be talking to you
Know that you're not lost, just cause you're a broken soul