[Verse]
I was born out in Freehold, New Jersey
My mother had a C-Section to birth me
My dad was there for that
My dad was there but left my mom to be my pap
We moved in with my aunt and her mother
We also lived with them and her brother
I lived there in peace for six years
I was a young kid that wasn’t worried about these tears
We went to my aunt Steph’s wedding
Down in North Carolina I knew my family there besides her husband I just met him
On that day it was sunny and bright
Wе got a call that my uncle died that night
I was nine and didn’t undеrstand it
When we went to the funeral everybody hugged me
Every single person said that I was lucky
That man was my father not my uncle the way he loved me
I was the light of his life and now he’s mine up above me
We moved out to Pennsylvania not long before
My mom tells me that she misses the shore
I had 2 brothers and I got pushed away
That’s when I felt depression and I felt kinda strange
In 6th grade I cut because I felt a certain way
And it felt amazing I did it almost every single day
I got sent to my grandma that summer
And when I got there I turned into a real bummer
Laid out in the middle of the fucking road
I was with my sister and my depression really fucking showed
Went back with my mom thought everything was fixed
I didn’t know that her boyfriend would be a fucking prick
I was eleven and I was laying down in the hall
My step brother came and kicked in the fucking balls
I hit him as hard as I could
I got beat since they never understood
I told them if I could leave I would
My step dad turned around and said I probably should
Thoughts of running away for nearly three years now
I got so big from the eating and religious I was a holy cow
I got with this girl a few months ago
She dragged me down too I haven’t eaten a full meal in a month bro
This is my message to whoever wants to hear it
I get what you’re going through just reach out in a minute
Thank you Mac you’re a savior in my life
I wish the best for you, your kids, and your wife