Chonny Jash
Cotard’s Solution (Anatta, Dukkha, Anicca)
What if the wind caught up with me -
Started to change when I did?
Would I blow out like a light
Or like a kite, fly away?
What if the fear of darkness gave way to the fear of colour?
Would you live in black and white, or rest your eyes through the day?
And if dreams can come true
What does that say about nightmares?
I’ll stay awake tonight…
Cry my name, remind my brain of my identity
I’m not gonna listen. I’m not my volition
I’m sha-na-na-na-na-na-na-na free will
Am I to blame for riding this train right by my destiny?
Oh, prove I can crack. Ah, loose from the track
Ah, sha-na-na-na-na-na-na-na free will
Rolling my third eye into the back
Of my head and squinting through the black
Saw no centre. Saw not whеre it led
It’s times likе this that make me wish that -
I wished that I were dead
I don’t wish I were dead
But somebody’s got to go!
I wanna make my murder look like a suicide
But they’ll all know, they’ll all know
They’ll all know that the body’s mine
I wanna go anonymous to identify
But they’ll all know, they’ll all know
They’ll all know, they’ll all know
They’ll all know that the body’s mine
Divide by one and find I’m one less than the one I was
Oh, how many people am I, now that I keep ‘em in my
Sha-na-na-na-na-na-na-na memory?
Check in the mirror to see how I look -
I look different in different ways
Oh, you do the math. Oh, who’s looking back?!
Ah, sha-na-na-na-na-na-na-na that’s not me!
Carving my initials in the back
Of my hand in case of losing track
I forgot, remember to forgive?
It’s times like this that make me wish that -
I wished that I could live
I don’t wish I could live
But somebody’s got to stay!
I wanna make my murder look like a suicide
But they’ll all know, they’ll all know
They’ll all know that the body’s mine
I wanna go anonymous to identify
But they’ll all know, they’ll all know
They’ll all know, they’ll all know
Know it’s mine
AH!
I look in the eyes that stare through mine
And wonder which see the living
Theirs seem to be oh, so white
While mine are shades of bloodied pink
And if Jules or Rene could see me now
Would they be so forgiving?
I’m not convinced that I am -
Just that I think
And I will not blink
‘cos if dreams can come true
What does that say about nightmares?
I’ll stay awake tonight
I wanna make my murder look like a suicide
(Kill me! Kill Me! 殺して! 殺して!)
But they’ll all know, they’ll all know
They’ll all know that the body’s mine
(Mourir! Mourir! Kill me! Kill me!)
I wanna go anonymous to identify
(Kill me! Kill Me! 殺して! 殺して!)
But they’ll all know, they’ll all know
They’ll all know, they’ll all know
They’ll all know that the body’s mine
(Mourir! 殺して! Kill me!)
死. 死. 死. 死. 死
死. 死. 死. 死
(I dunno if that was forceful enough , we’ll do another)