[Verse 1:]
Damn
Why wasn't you in my life?
To teach me how to treat women
Maybe my relationships would go right
Maybe I'd go outside
Talk to new people
Instead of just write
Maybe I wouldn't have thought all of those ideas
On that one night
But no, I don't blame, and no, I don't feel any shame
Well maybe a little, when n***as would joke 'bout it
Like it's a game
Or when I was drivin' through lanes
At 3 in the mornin', just screamin' to let out the pain
And hopin' the car would just bang on the side of a tree
So that someone would cry out my name
And hindsight that shit was lame
But fuck it, (Fuck it,)
Stepdad camе in my life
Man, that's the shit I always wanted
And еverything happens for a reason
That's why I still love him
But if I said I didn't hate him back when I was 12
N***a, I'd be frontin'
Especially at age 13, when he threw out my Momma luggage
And that's when I learned to appreciate everything
Until the second is over
First time in my life I saw my Momma cry
In front of me, until I got a lil' older
I could tell she wasn't doin' well
But just for me, she worked on keepin' up her composure
That's why I would keep it in
Didn't cry for 6 years, 'till last October
Damn
[Chorus:]
I got all these damn figures but a father figure
I got all these damn figures 'round me
Got my lip around the blood and fingers 'round the liquor
Wanna feel just like I'm fuckin' drownin'
I got all these damn figures but a father figure
I got all these damn figures 'round me
I been prayin' to the trigger, take my life, lil' n***a
But my finger wouldn't take it for me, yeah

[Verse 2:]
Early 2010s, ridin' in my Uncle whip in the Summer
Don't remember shit too well, if he had a Jeep or a Hummer
'Cousin Zave to my left side, he was really like an older brother
Even though the n***a younger, we was like Dumb and Dumber
Talkin' 'bout shit that ain't even matter
Thought they loved when they talked
Only time I didn't feel like a bastard
Had to piss the whole damn trip
Uncle said you better hold your bladder
Hour later, we was at the Whip
Prayin' for the bathroom, like a pastor
Day later, hit the ocean
Me and Zave, we was jokin'
Said the hottest n***a, finna swim the farthest n***a
That's the notion
So we swam past the barrier, people spotted us
And told my Uncle, there was cause for commotion
Headed back for the sand, but 5 minutes later
I wasn't makin' a single ounce of emotion
Had me screamin' like a bitch, n***a
Feelin' like my hair was underwater
Got me feelin' like a quotient
'Member that shit vaguely
Uncle Calvin swam in there, tryna bring me back to safety
I'll remember 'till I'm 80
To this day, I wish I could've saved him, like he saved me
I been thinkin' 'bout it lately
If I checked in, would he tell me about it, maybe
'Member this moment daily
Would never let another figure in my life pass gravely
Shit
[Chorus:]
I got all these damn figures but a father figure
I got all these damn figures 'round me
Got my lip around the blood and fingers 'round the liquor
Wanna feel just like I'm fuckin' drownin'
I got all these damn figures but a father figure
I got all these damn figures 'round me
I been prayin' to the trigger, take my life, lil' n***a
But my finger wouldn't-