He taught me roads rivers run
So I ran and I stayed gone for so long
Sharing secrets doesn't undo the wrong but
It started to feel like I belonged

I sang of my sickness
That’s what he called it
Coz I didn't fit
Coz there were bandages on my wrists

He taught me map maybe make
So I took off my clothes and jumped in the lake
Where the wounds were started to ache
And I felt so alive and so awake

But he said
Don't romanticize it
And just like еvery other man I evеr loved back then
I let him say it

I am I am still alive still alive, singing