[Intro]:
How can I live if I, how can I live if I-
[Verse 1]:
How can I live if I run out of time?
I been mistaken for living a lie
Let me live, let me be
You don't know how much trauma you given me
Severely traumatized and scarred
Exhausted from all this fighting (Hate)
I'm emotionally, mentally and spiritually wounded
In a cycle of self-loathing and despair
Life became too steep, I can't climb
Turned your back on me, feel like you never cared
Hate reliving past times to pass time
Taken for granted, but my wishes weren't
Try to repair some damage, all you ever did was take advantage
Try to heal my pain, process was so slow
Try to forget, don't know how far I'll go
Said I had regrets, I just try to forget all the pain you caused me
I can't breathe, feel like I'm trapped in space
I'm getting claustrophobic, not enough space
Horrible mindset, premonitions
Tired of reminiscing
Feel so vengeful, can't erase all this rage
Haven't died yet, but I'm in grave danger
Don't know how to cope with all this pain
Everyone says I'm a stranger
Hate being tempted, tired of all the resentment
Feel like I'll never be good enough
It's not enough, think I'll suffer for the rest of my life
I don't know my pain and strife
Struck fear in your heart like lightning
Not religious, but always enlightening
Tired of the astigmatism, feel like an enigma
Done with this, none of this is beneficial, I seize power
Don't know what's wrong with my worth
Power's too big, can't understand my girth
Live in a crazy predicament, nobody witnessed it (I feel so lonely)
Don't compromise, don't comprehend
Being denied, why can't I be accepted?
What's my fate? Have no faith
People leave me for dead, full of dread
Heart's cold, need some insulation
What's going on? Need an explanation
Don't tell me how to live, this is not a scripture
Betrayal scars, do they really heal?
People say go to therapy, can't explain how I feel
[Chorus]:
Let me live, this my life
Don't know if it's going out right
Can't escape all this pain
Going insane, is an asylum really worth it?
Feel like I'm cursed, is my life getting better? (It's getting worse)
Should I leave or should I stay?
Either way, my life is not going to improve (Guess-)
Guess I got to keep moving, what else do I have to lose?
[Verse 2]:
People say I act cold, freezing
Lonely in this community, this world's cold, anemic
Saying that I'm belligerent and illiterate
Wants some closure, get this over with
Overcome my past, prepare for my future
I been backstabbed, betrayed, full of dismay
Now, I look at my life at a different perspective
Assumptions, that's too introspective
Stop being envious, I'm not the enemy
Get my life together or it's going to be the end of me
I realized all my life I been told lies
Need some advice, won't be advised
Feeling hopeless, don't know what I'm going through
Stare at the wall if I can't pull through
In a fragile state, I'm bound to break
My life feels so minuscule and bleak
Everyone I know, despises, prays for my demise
Heinous, envious, why do you envy me?
Is it because I'm- (Something's wrong with me)
Is it because you think I'm hateful?
I'm full of hate, doesn't mean I'm hateful
Too many things I tried to eradicate
I'm just trying to move onto a better life
After so many used pains, still the same, will I ever be sane again?
How will I move on after so many years? I feel so lost
My pain is unknown, what's the cause?
What's the price to pay for long term suffering?
All I want is for my pain to disappear
Feel so lost, why am I here?
[Verse 3]:
I don't know why I'm here
I don't know what else to do, get the- out my face
Oh my god, you got the audacity to say that I'm crazy? You're a disgrace
Thinking you know what I'm going through? I'm so insane
Let me live, this my life
I'm freezing, I don't know if it's going out right
I been so cold, anemic
Everyone keeps saying I'm scolding (Oh my god, I'm freezing)
I'm so cold, anemic, my flow is cold
I don't even know, baby
Don't know where to go, get the hell out my face
I don't know what else to do
[Chorus]:
Let me live, this my life
Don't know if it's going out right
Can't escape all this pain
Going insane, is an asylum really worth it?
Feel like I'm cursed, is my life getting better? (It's getting worse)
Should I leave or should I stay?
Either way, my life is not going to improve
Guess I got to keep moving, what else do I have to lose?
[Outro]:
What else do I have to lose?