[Intro: ICETRESAVAGE]
Why, oh why? (๐๐ฐ๐ฉ, ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ด ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ข๐ต ๐ง๐ช๐ณ๐ฆ)
[Verse: CETRESAVAGE, ๐๐๐ข๐บ, ๐๐๐๐ข๐ง๐๐]
Life's full of desolation and despair
Don't placate me, therapy wasn't working
Dealt with so many losses, often, lose myself
Still trying to find my true purpose, prove myself
Feeling hopeless, distraught and empty
Dealing with anger, don't tempt me
Depression left some terrible scars, deep wounds
Don't know what's going on, everything's strange
Trying to make sense of the world, digress
Everything's distorted and unfamiliar
Steady trying to maintain, it's such a strain
Full of dreadful memories, can't cope anymore
Feel so hopeless, don't know my worth
I don't want to be alone, but I'm so alone (Why?)
Despair, depression, which one is worse?
Tried to escape, trapped in an endless hearse
My pain won't go away, it keeps lingering
Can't deal with this negativity given to me
Tired of being used, thrown away, this isn't a ruse
All this animosity, hostility, irritability
Done with this pity that I can't condone (Help me)
๐๐ฐ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ต๐ฆ๐ญ๐ญ ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ธ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ญ๐ช๐ท๐ฆ, ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ'๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ฎ๐ฆ
๐๐ฏ๐ณ๐ข๐จ๐ฆ๐ฅ, ๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ข๐ฏ๐จ๐ฆ๐ฅ, ๐'๐ฎ ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ฎ๐บ๐ด๐ฆ๐ญ๐ง ๐ข๐ฏ๐บ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฆ
๐๐ถ๐ง๐ง๐ฆ๐ณ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ, ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ด ๐ฑ๐ข๐ช๐ฏ ๐จ๐ช๐ท๐ฆ๐ด ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ข๐ฏ๐จ๐ฆ๐ณ, ๐ข๐ฏ๐น๐ช๐ฆ๐ต๐บ
๐๐ข๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ค๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ต๐ณ๐ฐ๐ญ ๐ช๐ต ๐ข๐ฏ๐บ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฆ, ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ'๐ด ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ข๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ข๐จ๐ข๐ช๐ฏ
๐๐ณ๐ช๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ๐บ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ฑ๐ฆ, ๐'๐ญ๐ญ ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ข๐ฏ๐ฆ ๐ข๐จ๐ข๐ช๐ฏ
๐๐ญ๐ฆ๐ข๐ด๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฆ๐ญ๐ญ ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ธ๐ช๐ญ๐ญ ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ฑ๐ข๐ช๐ฏ ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ฐ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ?
๐'๐ฎ ๐ฐ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ญ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ฅ, ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ข ๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ฑ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ด๐ด๐ช๐ท๐ฆ ๐ด๐ต๐ข๐ต๐ฆ
๐๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฌ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐'๐ฎ ๐จ๐ฐ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ณ๐ฐ๐ถ๐จ๐ฉ ๐ช๐ด ๐ง๐ณ๐ข๐ถ๐ฅ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ต?
๐๐ด ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ญ๐ช๐ง๐ฆ ๐ข ๐ด๐ช๐ฏ? ๐๐ช๐ญ๐ญ ๐ ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ธ๐ช๐ฏ?
๐๐ถ๐ด๐ต ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ข๐ญ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ, ๐ ๐ง๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ญ ๐ด๐ฐ ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ต๐ณ๐ข๐บ๐ฆ๐ฅ
๐๐ฐ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ช๐ฏ๐ด๐ข๐ฏ๐ฆ, ๐'๐ฎ ๐ฐ๐ฏ ๐ข ๐ณ๐ข๐ช๐ฅ, ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ๐บ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ'๐ด ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ฐ๐ฌ๐ข๐บ
๐๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฆ๐ญ๐ด๐ฆ ๐ค๐ข๐ฏ ๐ ๐ฅ๐ฐ? ๐'๐ฎ ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ต๐ณ๐ฐ๐ญ ๐ข๐ฏ๐บ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฆ
๐๐ข๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ต๐ณ๐ถ๐ด๐ต ๐ข๐ฏ๐บ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ ๐ถ๐ฏ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ด๐ด ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐บ ๐ง๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ญ ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ฑ๐ข๐ช๐ฏ
๐๐ฐ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ช๐ฏ๐ช๐ด๐ค๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ต, ๐ค๐ข๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ๐จ๐ฆ๐ต ๐ข๐ฃ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฑ๐ข๐ด๐ต ๐ฅ๐ข๐บ๐ด
๐๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ธ๐ช๐ต๐ฉ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ด ๐ต๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ต ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ, ๐ช๐ต ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ค๐ฆ๐ข๐ด๐ฆ (๐๐ฐ)
๐๐ถ๐ญ๐ญ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ฉ๐ข๐ต๐ฆ, ๐ข๐ฏ๐จ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ด๐ฑ๐ข๐ช๐ณ, ๐ฃ๐ณ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ธ๐ฏ
๐๐ฐ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ด๐ฑ๐ข๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ญ๐ช๐ง๐ฆ, ๐ ๐ธ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต ๐ต๐ฐ ๐จ๐ฆ๐ต ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ต ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ด ๐ต๐ฐ๐ธ๐ฏ
What I been through isn't a hoax
Real life, don't need to brag or boast
Tried different methods to forget all this pain
Need some balance in my life, is there hope?
How can I stay focused when I feel so hopeless?
Reality shattered, everything's broken
Well, that's really saddening, I'm weakened
Life's eroding, fading away
Despair, anger, pain, shame, hate (It's the same)
Can't distinguish a difference between everything
What else can I do? Inside, I'm deeply hurting
My past, it's too discerning
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