no matter how hard i tried
i got tricked by each one of your lies
and i look hopelessly up to the sky
questioning why
why did i receive this
what did i do to deserve
the coleslaw birth
of this emotional tumour
that slowly grows in my chest
i was always the one who tried my best
much more than the rest
atleast, i once did
an ache in my chest
that forever echos and makes it presence known
numbing doesn’t work
left on my own
to unravel myself
all alonе
trying to find the piece that causеd it all to go wrong
and i seemed to of over nurtured the plant
caused it to drown
everything i built came crashing down
and i still have yet to find out why
tried to hold my pride
but it slipped through my hands
tried to be the bigger person
but all that shit
was made up by others
so they can peacefully get away with it
with all the damage they forced me through
trying to find a new angle
but the light just wont show
trying to look at the sun
but i dont see it at all
all i see is snow
and its cold
and when i ran off
no one noticed i was gone
no one noticed
that i had broken into a thousand pieces
thats when i realised that i was truly alone

four long years
and im still sitting here with the damage
i rummage
through the rubble
trying to find a fold of hope
you caused this i hope you know
always hoped that i could of made you proud
those thoughts were loud
but it was all silenced
bu the way you walk out
and i just wish you knew
how close i held you to my heart
and you were the one who decided go rip it all apart

one day ill get back on my feet
and would of put it behind me
but currently
ill find warmth in the spitting flames of us
u til it grows cold
and ill wallow in the rubble
that is crashing around me

[do you think youll ever be free?]
[yeah... maybe one day. looking forward to it]