Last time I was here I was lost
Looked up to the sky
Tried to find god
Gave me no answer
No cure like cancer
Don’t know why its hitting me this late
But it was a horrible fate
And I gave up I don’t know why

Left wishing on stars
Left with my scars
And sitting alone in my car
November fades to December
And I still don’t know better

Left screaming at the sky
Trying to decipher why
Letting out hopeless cries
Left with no signs

Feeling lost
Pretending like I haven’t fallen apart
Trying to find happiness
But at what cost?
Left to twiddle with my thumbs
Lost
Waiting for an event
Waiting for something to break,
A sign
But nothing is sent my way

The tone plays
While I hang up
Dizzy haze so close to giving up
Trying to fight for the people I love
But the tide is getting a little too rough
Scared to drown
As that’ll leave me stranded in this lonely town
Stuck in no mans land
Trying to get off this
Trying to get off this tight rope
This high horse
But what will I do to cope?

Looks like im lost again
Hoping this chapter could end
Missing February
Haven’t been the same since then
So helpless I tried to speak to Jesus
Even tho I never believed he was there
But he didn’t answer
And it looks like im lost today
Facing the same dead ends
Going in circles again
This is all the same
When I wake up I hope I wake up sane
Because all these recent events have left me completely changed
For better or for worse?
Something I don’t know yet