I wish I could love me so I can let you love me,‬
‪I know I’m crazy,‬
‪I know I’ve been through it,‬
‪I know I’ve been through a lot of shit,‬
‪But believe me when I say this,‬
‪I’ll love you unwillingly, ‬
‪I’ll always be there for you - even on the days you don’t want me to. Because thats just me. And I’m sorry.‬
‪I wish I could love me like you love me,‬
‪So I can let you love me,‬
‪But I get in the way,‬
‪Because I feel like I have a debt to pay,‬
‪I feel like I’m constantly running,‬
‪As if there is something I’m trying to outrun.‬
‪What have I done?‬
‪I wish I could let myself let you love me, but apart of me doesn’t want to let you in, ‬
‪because then there would be a chance I’d lose you,‬
‪And losing you is something I never wish to do,‬
‪I know it burns,‬
‪I know I cause you to ache,‬
‪Please wait a little longer,‬
‪So I can heal and become stronger.
But leave if you have to,
please leave if it’s killing you,‬
‪Because I don’t want to hurt you.‬