i really do hope i wake up from this nightmare one day
because i feel forever stuck on this page
and its collecting dust
and im growing old in my most delicate parts
and if i ever were to finally be free
i just hope you dont follow me

i've been living in my own universe
tied ribbons around my heart so it doesn't fall apart

and im living in my own echoing space
with nothing but my thoughts
and no physical matter around
and it's heaven
but not the type of heaven that i felt when i was in love with you
this ones different and its much stronger
and i just know this onе wont collapse under any force of prеssure
because ill treat myself better
like how i treated you and all my flowers

you used to dangle my flaws in front of my face
and yet i was strong enough to stay
and i used to b believe in fairytales
but thanks to you all that sadly washed away

but time comes to collect wavering pain
and take it out of your grasp
because its not yours to carry
and to me, that's heaven