[verse]
Buzzards circling my feet
Guess it’s time to face defeat
I didn’t have much to offer
I know i look like the monster
I think that i’m far too late
Cause when i’m low, i isolate
Bring me peace, i don’t feel safe
Can’t find sleep, i'll ruminate

But i never fit in wherever i go
My eyes are a river of headaches it shows
Nobody knows me, i like it like that
I say what i want with no one to react

I got a lot to say but i just keep it to myself
I don’t want no complaints for when i’m talking mental health
This is more than an outlet for me, i hopе you understand
So i cannot guarantee that you can hold these shaking hands

Been considеred a headcase
Upon first impression
The people around me
Told me it was just depression
They said it would pass
But i feel myself decay
What the fuck do you do
When your world has turned to grey
[refrain]
But i never fit in wherever i go
My eyes are a river of headaches it shows
Nobody knows me, i like it like that
I say what i want with no one to react

[bridge]
I never been the one to just avoid potential pain
Cause i’ve always tried to face it, let it rain down on my face
Never been so cold-hearted and reckless, you can thank my brain
For putting me through the wringer to humble me throughout the day
I know that i don’t need it but i cannot risk the pain
I hound myself for everything that i cannot explain
It’s like i’m judging every moment, every breath i take
Hypervigilant of every little thing i say

Just gimme a moment, i need to breathe
Look in the mirror and i hate what i see
If there’s a god, why can’t she hear me scream?
Fuck all your prayers, i need reality

I never wanted to wring out my clothes
They’re cloaked in my sweat from the lies that you told
Burdened with boredom while stuck in my room
I hate that my thoughts always default to you
A shred of hindsight
Could rest my case
The downpour of failure
Will yield no pain
It’s merely distractions
I can’t complain
Gotta learn my lesson
Before it’s too late