[Verse]
When goin' through shit on your own, seem like time never matter
Gotta live your life while you still here, we don't know what's coming after
Most of my days filled with Percocets and disturbing laughter
Could read my life just like a book, all these years feel like flippin' through chapters
Stop tryna find love, 'cause it always seems to end in disaster
Hope when it happens, that I don't get left behind by the rapture
It's hard to capture all the thoughts that's floating through my mind
Hope the new bitch that I likе ain't into waistin' time
My life feel like a wastе of time
Even with all these diamonds that's on my body, still be hard to shine
One day just wanna hop in a Masi' and lose control while I drive
Prolly speedin' down 195, with that fire in my ride
Wonder, "If I go lay down today, who gon' be on my side?"
Like I need therapy, I wake up early thinkin' 'bout homicide
Knowin' that that’s fucked up to say, but that's the truth
Think my life stuck in a loop, while I'm jumping through these circles
Headfirst like in the circus, when they set fire to a hula hoop
You know I been stopped fuckin' with whoopty-whoop
I had love for that bitch, the bro told me she wasn't nothin' but a swoop
I'm prolly slidin' in traffic, with a full size K in a two-seater coupe
Tryna see what the fuck next for me me to do
Back at home, I'm running circles 'round n***as that was rappin' way 'fore I started
But still let me skip the line, though
When I came, don't know where the fuck I'd be today
I ain't lying, though, play with him and I'm slidin', ho
Yeah, I got a good heart, but when it's time for it, I take a headshot
Or throw this shit away and go lay down for it
How I'm living, I was born for it
The top, I been goin' for it
My respect, know I'm blowin' for it
How you expect me to keep it real with you? From you I never saw
Not even a decent amount of decency
The ones that say they love me, behind my back speaking secretly
I done been through the worst, it ain't shit out here that could put cease to me
Got bad bitches holding seats for me
Secret restaurants out in Cali
Got me dining in places you couldn't even eat with me
My mind so stuck on murder, in important places with heat on me
Places you wouldn't even think that heat'll be
I did shit in the dark and dug it deep where nobody can see
I admire your manifestation on who you wanna be
N***as want me on a tee
Insomnia got it hard to sleep, at night I'm fightin' PTSD
Reminiscing on nights that I cried, I won't die the same way as Lil P
I've been having to mix Percocets and Xans just to get some sleep
Catch at least two flights every month, traveling to different states
I keep my eyes forward, say, "Fuck the past" and just keep moving straight
Did shit when I was young, I'm older now, won't dwell on my mistakes
With me and God, your life up for debate like your head on a stake
Lately money been raining from the sky, went and bought me a Wraith
Shout out Future and Drake
Life ain't been good, this shit been fucking great
Dropped that bag, my young n***as gon' come smash your lil' head like a grape
BBG my dog, lil' bro a stepper and he banging Grape
They throw so much hate in my face, I'm starting to think it's normal
Emails, we sending formal
Most of them start with, "I'm here to inform you"
You might have passed up on your chance to sign the biggest artist
Out this generation, just 'cause his looks or the tats on his hands
Gravedigger, I got that engrated to my skin
All we know get it in
Go slide and ain't hit shit, then we gon' spin again
Can take a n***a out the hood, but can't take the hood up out a n***a
From the label got a bag, I been trying hard not to spin out the Benz
Yeah, that's my dog from out of Florida, shout out Spinabenz
Wish I can bring Red back for a day, just so we can sin again
Like 50 Cent out in these streets, I done lost many men
N***as that 'round been 'round me my whole life, I ain't got too many friends
Friendships, they tend to tear, when discussions is about dividends
Discussing shit that should only be mumbled, treat that like a sin
Tryna overturn my daddy sentence, can't let him do nineteen in the pen
Lawyers don't answer phones, prolly what's wrong with his predicament
I said shit that I never meant, dreamed of places I never went
Still seem to find myself arguing with myself, 'bout bitches that I'm with
Not scared of commitment, more so scared to commit
He said my name, I dropped ten thousand and got him hit with a stick, facts