[Verse 1: Elusive]
For me, it started with Katrina
I fell in love, the first time I ever seen her
But I was just a dreamer, see, I knew I wasn't good enough..
.. And I ain't know what I did, but I didn't mean to
Make you hate me - I apologize
Cause when I think of you now, I still get butterflies
I thought you fit me like a glove, I wrote you the Cost Of Love
But I guess by then you'd already had enough of all my motherfucking lies
Though I just wanted your attention
And the only thing that, I forgot to mention
Is when you sent me your life story, reading each sentence
Made me realize, you really were the closest thing to perfection
I would ever see, but I know we'll never be
So don't get the wrong impression
I'd of told you what I felt then
But back then the only thing I ever really felt, was depression
Cause in my mind I wasn't healthy
Then I met an angel, that I thought could help me
Ironic - the way I felt like I was drowning out at sea
Until you came and saved me, Chelsea
You touched my heart in ways I can't describe
You were my guiding light, when all I felt was dark inside
You say I gave you passion, since then I've seen time passing
But I don't want the past, I just wanna be back by your side
I didn't know if I could cope apart
I love you, even though you left me with a broken heart
But that was years ago, I hope that you hear me though
Cause you were all I ever really wanted, right, from the start
And I ain't lying, I'm trying more
Some people said I was soft, but now I'm iron ore
Cause now I feel like a lion, and I ain't waiting till I'm dying
To let you know, that you were worth fighting for
But that's over, and now I will address
The next issue, cause I ain't doing this to impress
I just wanna get this off my chest
Cause if I die, then I just want you to know that I loved you, Jess
But that's a ship that has set sail
Exhale, didn't mean to let myself fail
So I'm self-destructive, I guess that's what love did
And I'm sorry, if I hurt you Abigail
To kill myself though, I'll need a pistol
People seeing right through me like I'm made of crystal
Yeah, my life's been unlivable
Though I ain't invisible, unless you're first name is Krystal
Then it's one night of euphoria
I never meant to hurt you though, enough of the historia
I apologized, can't keep it secret
I guess it's kinda funny after you I met Victoria
.. And she was truly something else
Fire is the only thing, that describes what I felt
We were so hot, must of burnt out
But when I think of you I still feel like I'm gonna melt
.. So I'm sorry, I had to deattach
I just couldn't let you see me, when I crashed
To chase the light, I had to see a flash
So I set myself on fire, just to be with Ash
Cause we connected in a different way
I'd been hurt before, but I thought she'd be here to stay
But then it all changed, can't escape the past
And through the pain, you were the only thing I pushed away
So I'm the only reason we drifted
Then I tried to fix what we had, but you resisted
I insisted, hoping I would feel like you assisted
Love seems like a dream that never even existed
Cause now we've lost what we had
And I ain't saying this to try and make you mad
Cause even though then I blamed you
I have realized since that we were both, just as bad
Cause I couldn't keep holding on
You were the only one, until you had to run
I'd been burnt before, but never felt the sun
Until i had no one else to turn to but *edited*
And she was there, when I was by myself
So sweet, why'd I treat her like an inbetweener?
But she reminded me of someone else
So what I said to her, had more to do, with Katrina
And now I'm sitting in this lonely room
I'm talking to myself though, so don't assume
That's a metaphor
Cause next time that I say I'm falling, I ain't talking love I mean I'm gonna hit the floor
.. It's been said before, I gave it new meaning
This time I see through open eyes, because I'm through dreaming
I mean I'm not asleep, but this hill I'm on seems kinda steep
So I'mma keep on fighting while my heart's beating
But now I don't who I'm fighting for
I only know she's not fighting for me
You were all I wanted, all that I adore
But true love can only exist, if it's in a story..