Elusive
When I’m Gone
[Intro]
I don't know if love's real..
I don't even know what it means..
I just want you to see what life's like, through my eyes..
Yeah..

[Verse 1]
Some say that love is unconditional
For me, that whole phase was transitional
Cause I ain't deal with the bullshit, I walk away from it
But taking away from me, gives me additional
Strength, to fight, see it's kinda like a side-effect
If art is fact, now you know my heart you can't affect
Cause I'm an artifact, call me the prototype
I'm not the archetype, but I'm it's architect
As I intercept, the radio transmitter
Life gave me lemons, so now I'm just as bitter
I'm sick of calling, I'd seen myself falling
But I will hit the bitumen before I turn into a quitter
It's like a whole verse that I deleted
And rewrote, just to say that history repeated
I'm out my mind over you, but I had to walk away
Cause you were still the only thing I needed
I'm on my own, guess I'm still appeasing
Suicidal - I'm liable if it's killing season
But I ain't just sitting idle, I'm idolizing dying
It's why I feel more like I'm trying to give you a reason
To hate me, but on the other hand
Maybe all I want is you to understand
What it's like for me, dealing with the pain
Guess I gave you a migraine - was treated like a grain of sand
So I'll disappear, on to the beach
Drowning in the ocean - so I ain't here to teach
And I guess, this is me at my best
Cause for me happiness, always seemed to be, out of reach
But that's why I seek, a different kind of light
Cause if I were made of crystal, you'd be dynamite
And I'd let you explode, just to see how much I take
I know I ain't gonna break, but the diamond might
Like if I am right, then you never cared
You look at me, like I'm just a kid
I know I'm not worthy, the truth is
You could never hurt me, more than I already did
I've seen my life pass, flashing
Visions of screams in my mind, with cars crashing
But before I let it happen, I just had to see you free
And now it's time you let me show passion..
See the greatest love ain't love, it's just a compromise
Only in it's truest form, you see life through another's eyes
There's no way it's gonna heal, so unless your love is real
Or your heart is made of steel, you will realize
That your soul-mate is there, waiting
Stuck in history, so I'm reanimating
All the memories, it's like a compilation
So I can deal with all the pain without the complication
And I can speak without the conversation
So you can see I reach my peak without the elevation
But you can revel in the fact that I'm alone
Cause I'm better off, and that alone's a revelation
And your love - it had an expiration
You moved my heart out of place, it's like an excavation
And you remind me of my ex
So I guess I shouldn't be surprised you left without an explanation
It almost killed me, no exaggeration
See how quickly I could age, from the agitation
What if this Sleepless Dream was real?
Then the True Love Stories must exist in my imagination
Cause life's a game I just gotta play
I love the craft, but I hate the tools
Your last words were it will be okay
Guess you didn't notice that it was April Fool's
Ha, but you know I like the irony
Like I rely on you, cause I just want to see you lie on me
But it's a fantasy, it's like I finally
Found what I've been searching for, was right there by the side of me
And I still try to be, stronger but I ache now
I'm like the child, parents threw into the lake, drowns
I'm like a car, that's never had a service
And I'm nervous on the surface, cause I've had as many breakdowns
But in the morning, feel my warming heart
Forget the music now, it's more than a performing art
And yet I play my part, it's how I deal
Cause I know either way, one day we'll be torn apart
I'd love you now until forever if you let me
I tried to cope, but all I hope is to be set free
I know you're lonely too, and all you want to feel is loved
Guess it just must be from anyone except me..

[Outro]
But when I'm gone, I just hope you can forget me..
And all you want to feel is loved..
Guess it just must be from anyone except me..
But when I'm gone, you might finally accept me..
And all you want to feel is loved..
I guess it just must be from anyone except me..