[Chorus]
Yeah, yeah, it's always been the same
I'on feel a difference, I still feel this pain, I-I still feel disdain
You reflect me, I see everything I hate
Nothing on this earth could ever make me feel the same
No matter what I try, I'll die if I lie next to you tonight
I fall deep into this hate, it's late, I wait to feel alive
I'on feel alive, oh no, I don't feel alive
I-I'on feel alive, 'live

[Verse 1]
Feel like I'm running out of options
I just fill my body up with toxins
I just lie alone and drown in darkness
Everything I do is fucking harmless (In the darkness, I thrive)
I've done all there is to ever do to feel alive
I'm stuck in this loop, but I still don't understand why
I can't end my life, no matter how much I have tried
Sometimes the real death is just to stay alive

[Bridge]
Sometimes the real death is just to stay alive

[Chorus]
Yeah, yeah, it's always been the same
I'on feel a difference, I still feel this pain, I-I still feel disdain
You reflect me, I see everything I hate
Nothing on this earth could ever make me feel the same
No matter what I try, I'll die if I lie next to you tonight
I fall deep into this hate, it's late, I wait to feel alive
I'on feel alive, oh no, I don't feel alive
I-I'on feel alive, 'live
[Verse 2]
Lemme up this to my head
If I pull this trigger, I'on care 'bout what comes next
I f—I feel it calling, my body just want some lead
I wake up, get up out of bed, I live in dread

[Chorus]
No matter what I try, I'll die if I lie next to you tonight
I fall deep into this hate, it's late, I wait to feel alive
I'on feel alive, oh no, I don't feel alive
I-I'on feel alive, 'live

[Outro]
Sometimes the real death is just to stay alive
Sometimes the real death is just to stay alive