Stop.
You are not broken. There is no fix. There is a change.
You are not your job, your significant other, the numbers in your bank account, the thoughts or the memories in your head.
Whatever anyone says, whatever.
You are the words you speak, the way you move.
This can change at any time as you decide, choose wisely.
Does your love mean anything if I can't feel it?
If I threw myself off a building, am I a martyr or a tragedy?
However you may feel momentary, only two factors persevere:
your relationship to the people around you, and your view of yourself.
You could buy that if you wanted to, but think about it, if you came home like you did, would it change a thing?
You are in constant dynamic. You are a star darling, act like one.
Take care of the ones you love, stop being so serious. Now is not forever.
But you knew all this, deep down.
Maybe we are forever ending where we started.
But it is only the end of you want it to be.
Everything is only ever what you would like it to be. Never as great or as great as it seems.
No matter how close or how impossibly far you think you got to that greener grass, you just have to try again.
We just have to try again.