I Do My Crosswords in Pen

Ink bleeds deeper when pressed hard
Soaks through paper and leaves stains on the table

You don't look how I pictured
You don't look quite how I remember

I'll tell myself
"I cannot surround me", but

Some smiles
Both resurrect and drain the life from

Drain life from me

I don't tell you everything
I don't tell you everything

Heartless, heartless, heartless

The pictures remind me, the pictures remind me
The pictures remind me, the pictures remind me

I'm calloused to smiles