[Spoken Word]
Inside of me, a monster fucking and sucking out my energy
Leaving me blessed with no spirit
I'm restless to find hope
"I'll miss it," I fear
And I can't clear it, I can't cope
In jeopardy, moving weatherly
And everyone is after me, after me
The importance, the character I have become
What I once was is altered in vain
There's no name, and I've been shamin'
I'm turnin' shades of yellow and red
And I'm trying to copе, but my mind says, "Rebel"
And all I find are thoughts arе rope
Still, I'm luggin' my bones for the path of life cryin'
Turnin' sluggish and dyin', wishing I was flying
The wind is so far, and my insides know the star not shining
Burning and hurting when they go up and die
Losing mind, turning blind
And can't find any asperation but temptation
For this alteration of my body to please my mind
Can you please help me to find
Any adapter for the double incision, seeking no revision
Just a bilateral mastectomy
And then I'll feel revised and free
Can you blame me for the hatred boiling up inside me?
Can't tame me, the pain that's making my pride flee
You say, "Set this aside and the guilt will subside"
But I've been taking the strides, and my mind still collides
Pulls me under the tide, and my mouth's open wide
Would you be able to push the shame aside?
Am I ready to die?