Can't seem to keep my head above water, just can't seem to put this chaos back into order

Verse (Ursula)
These times will have you second guess your self, your faith, your dreams
Got children to clothe and shelter and feed
These times are when the desire for prosperity is fueled by survival not greed
Feast or famine that’s the artist life
The balance act is to stay unwavering committed
Even when times are tight but weakness comes when bills pile up and you wanna give up but don’t give up

Hook:
Can't seem to keep my head above water
Just can't seem to put this chaos back in order