Aloneness

Time stands still

Ever lasting
True
Consuming
You embrace the solitude

Walk the marvelous path of reclusion
Mystic
Consuming
Gentle
Safe

An insect
A guest at an event
A small, dark room
A peaceful, tranquil planet

Preparing for eternity
Jumped off the carousel
Outside
Pretending civilized
Sad circus
Aloneness
Is deep
You're still
You surrender your soul to a ghost
And when the shadows come to call
Secret thoughts become conversation

From in the corners of the box
I chose to think outside of
I forged four fragile bows to make a circle
Layers of dust fall to warm my weary heart

In the marvelous method of reclusion

I'm preparing for eternity
Jumped off the carousel
Outside
Pretending civilized
Sad circus

I've found myself but I don't know what to make out of this situation?
Am I really awake?
I wonder if time goes by too fast for those who've loved me in the past?

Hurting are my hands and hurtful are the words that I am writing
Layers and layers of dust coat my heart!
Broken is the door and broken is the man who screamed and tore it down
Futile are the attempts to change me
And futile are my whispers in the dark
Quiet is the man behind the window
Quieter still the man behind the mask

Black are these old brick walls I have laid
Black are these cold brick walls I have painted
Black is my ambitious, tainted art
Black is my bleeding, misplaced heart

Aloneness
Takes hold
While you sleep
Forever lasting
Grave
Stealing
Succumbing to the solitude

You believe the marvelous dreams of reclusion
Peaceful
Mystical
Serene
Downstream time suspends
As II drift

Paralysis sneaks up
And sedates me
Upstream time flows
Without me
Goes unmissed

I'm heading for eternity
Jumped from the carousel
Outside
Pretending civilized
Sad
Civilized sad circus!