[Verse]
It's no understatement when I say I hate myself
Just being real when I say I wish I was someone else
Just tryna deal every time, go cut herself
Look at her scars, I'm wondering how it all felt
Can't blame her we all dealing with the cards we're dealt
Act tough as leather, but inside we're all felt
Drifting darkness tryna think of something else
Delve in music and anime but nothing helps
Should off myself, but where would that leave me
A n***a that made ecchi raps that killed himself at twenty-three
Yeah I got a million views, but inside I'm a hollow being
Let's be real if it's not lolis y'all barely listening
And that's real shit this empire I built it
But it's disheartening as fuck when your own n***as won't bump shit you but your heart and soul into
And to tell the truth, I could end it all I been staring at that roof
[?] being too descriptive now, but fuck it if I was proud of sicon I could be renowned IRL
Shiki thinks a good chance he might go to Hell
Time will tell if my repentance will work out or fail
Oh well guess this the path I chose for myself
I won't quell in the face of adversity, I'll prevail or die, that's another option
Sometimes just breath on beats when I'm tired a' talking
May not seem like it, but it's hard to put my art out for the world to consume and view
Easily you find analytics consuming you
Parasitic, got trolls watching your every move
Copyrights a bitch, shouts out to Gambino
All these beats good to use as far as I know
See so many pussy rapper like I'm a gyno'
Never stand for what they believe, they lack a spinal
Sorry if I struck a nerve chord
But while I'm at it gotta say I hate this nerdcore
You belligerent fucks what are you really rapping for
Reiterating lines of the nerd have uttered before
Y'all go on like it's rad
You make us all look bad
So all these [?] freestyle should leave it in the past
And I don't have time to kiss anyone's ass
If the community hates me then I guess too bad
Y'all think I'm weird but honestly I'm glad
Don't wanna be viewed as something y'all already had
Currently in the game, wanna change up eveything
Subsequently get the fame, but why do I feel ashamed
Tell me why, tell me why, look me I the eye
Give me one reason I shouldn't just kneel over and cry
If any day my parents might keel over and die
If I'm the cause of mental anguish for my future bride
If I'm the reason my own n***a are ashamed I rhyme
Cause my content's very hebephilic at times
Honestly I don't know why I grind so hard at this rapping shit give me a sign
To the code I fucked up like the [?]
That's some shit to divulge
World staring at my bulge
Plan to do this music until I get old
But that's only on the grounds I don't break down and fold
I don't break down and fold
Man that's only on the grounds I don't break down and fold, man