James Baldwin
On The Table
I don't understand it
I gave you love like 20 different ways
But now I see the ending
All your bags on the landing
Like you bout walk away
Like nothing even happened
Like you didn't come in and change my history
Like you never laid your finger over me
Like I'm just a figment
Like you never figured out my mystery

But I put it on the table
When I gave you my love
Every damn night
When I cried and told you
What was on my mind
Every time we had a fight

There you are
Now I had enough
No more love
So we pack it up
Done with hurt
Now we leave without a word

Now I'm a little sad
Coz I thought we had a plan
Feeling really mad
Coz I thought you were the man
Waking beside you expect to see your hair
Gurl when he is inside you
Is he even there?
That ain't a diss
It's just the real you I miss
The one I fell in love with
The one I love to kiss
The one who had me backwards
Giving me my bliss
But did it even happen
The hell did I miss?
I think I blinked
Then you gave it all up
I never meant
To to pack it all up
But here we are
And it ain't my fault
You live as a shadow
I'm giving up hope
Of you being an adult
This ain't what I ordered
I want my money back
This ain't how I bought it
Had a seat at the table
But baby boy I don't want It
Put it on the table
When I gave you my love
Every damn night
When I cried and told you
What was on my mind
Every time we had a fight

There you are
Now I had enough
No more love
So we pack it up
Done with hurt
Now we leave without a word
There you are
Now I had enough
No more love
So we pack it up
Done with hurt
Now we leave without a word