[Verse 1: Jesse Sendejas, Whitney Flynn & Both]
Loaded to brim with Librium
Hallucinating in some rich hotel in NOLA
Just using worse drugs to quit the drugs
Been using to stay comfortable n' numb
Used to be I’d drink myself through every twist and turn
But now I’ve grown up a bit
And seen some shit
Made my mistakes
I’ve lost and won
What did I learn?
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[Verse 2: Jesse Sendejas, Whitney Flynn & Both]
Holy shit I’m not dependent anymore, It’s fucking weird
I’ve been an addict for a decade now I can see the world so clearly (and it’s terrifying!)
My mind it feels rejuvenated
All those thoughts I drown out for so long are bubbling back up (and they're driving me crazy!)
Oh, look now I can feel again, the numbness has abated
How's real life, it fine and dandy? (No, it’s not, I fucking hate this!)
[Interlude]
This really how all these sober people live!
Life sober is over stimulating piece of shit!
This feeling's hell and boring normalcy!
Why did I even quit‽
[Pre-Chorus]
Oh, yeah that’s right, I almost died
So, I suppose I’ll give this sober train a ride
At least until I yank out all my teeth
Does this boredom never cease?
Reality is a disease
Oh, lord I need fucking drink
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[Bridge: Jesse Sendejas]
I sit in slippers on a dog hair coated sofa, staring at the ceiling, contemplating god
Why I numb myself and what I’m so afraid of, all while trying to ignore these racing thoughts
I've a never-ending nagging need to figure out the point
But maybe there just isn’t one
We’re all just maladroit, moronic, meaningless abominations hurdling towards an empty ever-lasting blank oblivion
The clarity is killing me, but so were the drugs
Why can I not just exist happily without being numb?
Is there something I’m missing which others have found?
If you’ve answers, inform me;
I’m being dragged down by the weight of unknowing, it’s really bummin’ me out
I’ve been to hell and back and seen so much beneath the heavens so what did I learn
[Pre-Chorus: Jesse Sendejas, Whitney Flynn & Both]
Left to my own devices
And stripped of all my vices
I possess a tendency to overthink and analyze things
But I don’t think it worthless to contemplate our purpose
Now that our society appears to have become so thoughtless
It seems especially important that we take a sec'
To gather some perspective and remember that we’re all just specs
Of dust within a vast expanse
Created out of happenstance
Diluted from the same initial spark
So let’s party down
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