Jordan Rakei
Polyfilla
[Verse 1]
Trying not to be the man I didn't want to be
To be the person that you want to see
The night falls, I'm the one you meet
Stopping at the shops and buying something sweet
Yo, I was willing, we was able
Yeah, put a living on the table
The little image that I cradle
To empathise with the villains in the fable
That we relate to, because it shapes you
I started doing everything that they do
Visions of a father that would taint you
Yeah, shatter like the glass that I was chained to
Becausе I made you, anyone could make you
Yеah, but it's your father that could raise you
Ah, only a mother that could save you
We never had enough, still we make do

[Chorus]
Yeah, to break the chains and the cycle
The days that are vital, the place as an idol
Yeah, see the name's in the title
The days, a disciple, this pain, it was my fault
Yeah, 'cause wide awake from the chains in the thread
All the pain that could stays in your head
Yeah, I understand, yo, I'm whiling
No man is an island but you know I've been trying
[Verse 2]
Yeah, but is it good enough?
Yeah, shiver through my hoodie as I pull it up
Cycle through the city, thinking stupid stuff
Acting like I'm quiet but I could erupt
And I did
Flashing back when we was kids, I see my father blow his lid
Yeah, I used to say I hate the crib
Hate the doors, hate the fridge, hate this fucking house I live
'Cause there's holes in every wall and now there's holes in every wall
When it was me and I've been taken for a fool
I hold my son, yo, I've been trying to play it cool
But I'm the villain in the story, the exception to the rule
Did the pressure burst a pipe, build a diamond?
The anger puts a fella on an island
Yeah, you hear the bang, feel the silence
Ah, but you know I've been trying

[Chorus]
Yeah, to break the chains and the cycle
The days that are vital, the place as an idol
Yeah, see the name's in the title
The days, a disciple, this pain, it was my fault
Yeah, 'cause wide awake from the chains in the thread
All the pain that could stays in your head
Yeah, I understand, yo, I'm whiling
No man is an island but you know I've been
[Verse 3]
When I was younger, yo, I wanted to be famous
Now that I'm older, yo, I wish that I was nameless
The world's aimless, no one gives a fuck
Time's of the essence, I was running out of luck
Getting stuck for a couple bucks, tryna bust a nut
Filling up my plate but wasn't filling up your cup
Yo, I say it's fucked, they even killed the Wolverine
That was the only father figure that I'd seen
I was lost, trying to find something to believe
All them aches and the pain, yeah, from crying on my knees
I was saying please, all this air that I breathe
Weren't a waste, the glass chin staying on my feet
I close my eyes and I listen to you sleep
Yeah, find some peace