Lonely, am I though I try to look otherwise?
Laugh or smile, disguise or rather hide
The insecurities I feed
You ask, why mask, what is going on with me?

Fuck!
Why should you care?

And I remember thinking to myself
"God if you're up there send me down someone who gives a fuck"
It's hard living, it's hard times in my mind
Doubt everything around me yet I say
"You're not fine" I tell myself "You're not right"

It's insane the things I wish that I had felt
Like the piercing sting of a Father's belt
Because tough love is still love, love's tough, I know this much
So I'll tell you right now motherfucks, life's harder when you got none

Shit and yet still I try

They say the guilty dog barks first
And I've been barking til my fucking throat hurts
And this is it, the guilty dog barks first
And I've been barking til my throat hurts
For many years I've tried
To escape what makes me me
But all I wanted my whole life
Was just somebody to give a fuck