​j. sula
​deux rois
[Verse 1]
Lost in Alameda
Put me on the speaker, I'a make you a believer
Balling 'til I'm falling, you should watch me from the bleachers
Always been a dreamer, but I fear that I'll be neither
Leader, nor overachiever
Friends turn to enemies, and I'm feeling like Caesar
I'm feeling like Peter, feel like I'm gon' meet the reaper
Listening to deceiver way more often than I need to
Which is never if you think about it, think I got the fever
But they always called me eager beaver
So I guess that I got the foundation that I needed
Told the preacher that I'm tryna correct myself from my leisure
He asked me "Son, did Jesus try to die for you?"
And brave the ether, nah He did it
But my human nature always having seizures

[Verse 2]
1800 miles, I been driving solo
Nature tied to everything, I've learned from shinto
If Michelangelo wasn't supposed to paint the chapel
But he did it anyway, then I guess I could let it go
'Cause I been holding onto things that only weigh me down
See, God been waiting patiently until the day I come around
They say He speaking to me, I don't hear a sound
Just distracting myself lifting these pounds
Call my number 'cause I'm lonely in the night time
In the night time when my lifeline is past Base Line
And I make time, if I got time, and I say rhymes
No, I ain't fine, but I say I'm doing okay and it's all great
But it's all fake 'cause the whole day I'm just lonely
Can't believe I'm alive still, used to spin on my bike wheels
Now I spin on that light steel, if my life had a highlight reel
That shit would be empty, man
[Outro]
This ain't a cry for help, no I'm just being honest here
I don't have it all figured out, and I got plenty fears
Plenty tears I shed over people who aren't even here
I wonder if my friends right now will last another year
Time reveals everything, but I still don't know anything
I still don't know anything
My God knows everything