Erik Lundin
As I’m Falling
(Little Jinder)
I need air
Let me breathe
Why can't you see
I need to heal
I'm falling apart
(Verse 1)
In the rain just walking around the same old blocks and the same old buildings
Life's a hell of a ride, hatred got me driven
My hood at the brink of war but not a single fuck is given
In the middle of the concrete jungle
Where the kids sell drugs for a living
These fuckaz got me stressing
I'm dealing with depression
Just how many times will my mere existence come into question
Thoughts from the underclass, will I learn my lesson
As I'm confronted with my demons and they got me guessing
Could it be that I'm losing my mind
When the devil come knocking don't usually mind
Head in the books, shoes to the ground
Simple and plain, I refuse to down
Now I'm a little bit older, but my heart just so much colder
Oh wait, hold up, here come the police I can smell the odor
Mr officer, why you gotta know my name
What am I suspected of, do we all just look the same
Patience comes at a cost and my account is drained
Guess this is the night we all gone feel my pain
(Little Jinder)
I need air
Let me breathe
Dare touch my heart
Why can't you see
I need to heal
I'm falling apart
You got me falling
All that i need
Is tons of your love
Leave me to freeze
Leave me to bleed
You got me falling
(Verse 2)
On my way outside again and this time it's snowing and cold as hell
Pass kids in the stairway oh wait, I know the smell
Thinking bout leaving the poverty
In the place from which my family came
To arrive where you can't get a job less
I'm willing to change my family name
It's easy to get depressed, equally easy to find excuses
So my brother got caught up in a criminal life full of drug abuse, just
Thinking bout what he pissed away
Trying to be a role model for my sisters' sake
My stepdad ain't around and I'm trying to make up for his mistakes
And we buried in debt, I'm the only male in the house
My boys locked up no bailing em out
Wait, moms on the phone, what you yelling about
"I got bad news really don't know how to break it
One of your family members OD'd, don't know if she gon' make it"
My head to the sky can't even get get me to pray
How come I can't get me a break
Swear to God if she taken away
Better come get me today
(Little Jinder)
I need air
Let me breathe
Dare touch my heart
Why can't you see
I need to heal
I'm falling apart
You got me falling
All that i need
Is tons of your love
Leave me to freeze
Leave me to bleed
You got me falling