My Daily Chemicals

Wish I could move to Montclair in an apartment maybe off Walnut Street

Where the coffee is as quality as the people I meet

I could live amongst my past and my memories

They said I had such promise when I was 14



In western Kansas the great plains reach up and touch the horizon Though it feels lonelier than a circular desert island

And my chest felt so empty like the dead field was a part of me

And I still feel it now so vividly



So I take my daily chemicals with water from the sink

And I cut out all the variables that push me to the brink



Off the coast of Mexico there’s a man who made an island from plastic bottles

Saw him on television, he smiled as he rebutted

And he talked about the life that he once knew and I wish that I could do that too

Move away and start anew



And there’s a metronome that’s embedded in the back of my head

It reminds me to move faster because my time is limited

And if I lose pace and start to space or go insane

And then a part of me’s erased

Where is my place?



So I take my daily chemicals with water from the sink

And I cut out all the variables that push me to the brink