[Verse 1:]
(All the time)
There is so much on my mind
I'm talking all the time
Sorry if I forward you if you call my line
I'm just lost inside my thoughts with a cigar and wine
I can tell my chakras now are not aligned
Wish someone could tell me what is wrong with the heart of mine
It's overshadowed by the darkness when it starts to shine
I really need to lie in bed to calm my mind
But I been drinking so my home right now is hard to find
I'm just an artist who is partly blind
Only sees the bad and never good when he starts to rhyme
I wished you cared that I never had a solid heart
But when I fall apart (Fall apart)
You call it art (Call it art)
Pinpointing suppressed memories is awfully hard
So I numb this shit with shots hitting all the marks
I'm just trying find myself in this
But the more I look for help the more I feel helplessness

[Hook:]
I'm drinking another one
Even though I really wished I could slow down
I'm drinking another one
Always say I'm gonna stop but I don't know how
I'm drinking another one
Sorry momma I really wished I could slow down
But I'm drinking another one
Always say I'm gonna stop but I don't know how
(I don't know how)

[Verse 2:]
The hell with this
Maybe I should see the therapist
So they can tell me what's wrong like there it is
Acting like she can solve it with some narratives
While she is going home getting divorced like her parents did
It's always issues we don't deal with 'cause we scared of it
I look in my reflection and I don't know whose eyes I'm staring in
It's terrible, man I really know I should take care of it
'Cause in order for me to move forward it's imperative
I'm scared to find what's underneath
'Cause whenever I get terrified it's tough to breathe
These feelings are a parasite
And I have nowhere to hide
So I just wear the hide of fucking sheep

See I'm hoping
That y'all can take it
I don't think I'm broken
I think my heart is misshapen
That's why my relationships can get overly complicated
And why I always get more toxic when intoxicated
Far from perfect
But I swear to God I'm worth it
'Cause I'm giving you all that I got and not what's just on the surface
So it really doesn't matter matter to me if this song gets purchased
I just want you to know that I write every song with purpose

And the purpose of this one for you to see inside
And show you what's been eating me alive
What am I to do when liquors causing me to be deprived
At the same time only thing that's helping me survive

[Hook:]
I'm drinking another one
Even though I really wished I could slow down
I'm drinking another one
Always say I'm gonna stop but I don't know how
I'm drinking another one
Sorry momma I really wished I could slow down
But I'm drinking another one
Always say I'm gonna stop but I don't know how
(I don't know how)