I wonder how it feels
I wonder if you're happier
You did believe there is a thing ever after

You were not scared to die
You didn't care at all
I wonder if you feared it when your heart stopped beating

And I almost wanna blame you for being so weak
And not even trying to last
I could give you an award for being such a coward
But I almost understand why

My only hero, he left me there
With no one to hold and no one to trust
And I call his ghost every night in my sleep
And I cannot bare to wake up in my tears

It's common that I feel I'd like to end it all
Just like my father did
Go to bed and never wake up

You know, the moon was full
I couldn't sleep that night
I'm petrified to think one day you're here
The next you're gone
And did you see the light
When the needle killed you
Did you think of the ones who will cry because they miss you
Who will die just to be with you? Just to be with you...

And I almost wanna blame you for being so weak
And not even trying to last
I could give you an award for being such a coward
But I almost understand why

I've been left behind most of my life
Oh hurt me now, I'm a fool in your eyes
And I hate myself more than you could hate me
And I destroy myself until you can't see me

I wonder how it feels
I wonder if you're happier