Wake yourself up
I’d listen back for hours
Disintegration by The Cure
Lullaby, Homesick, Last Song
Soundtrack to my time on tour

Quit my job, took a flight
Call my girl, start a fight
Did my best Eddie Vedder
Then I buckle under pressure

Members come and members go
Town to town is all I know
Austin, Houston, El Paso
Adderal and espresso

But how do you sleep at night?
Try as hard as I might
Did my best Evan Dando
Where the fuck did the time go?

Throw your life away
Pick it up on another day
And I can’t, I can’t hear you

Throw your life away
Pick it up on another day
And I can’t, I can’t hear you
'Cause I can’t hear you
Wake yourself up
It’s not what I intended
No holidays or wedding vows
Cousins turned to teenagers
Send me back if you know how

Skim through all that they write
“He didn’t have it tonight”
Please them all you could never
“Bet it sticks with you forever”

Throw your life away
Pick it up on another day
And I can’t, I can’t hear you

Throw your life away
Pick it up on another day
And I can’t, I can’t hear you
'Cause I can’t hear you

It’s not so glamorous, see your life through a camera lens
Add it up, anyone impressed?
Add it up till I'm laid to rest

It’s not so glamorous, looking back on the life I missed
Add it up, all the years of stress
Always told I was second best
I had to learn
I had to learn
I had to learn
I had to learn
I had to learn
And I had to

And after all of these years
My blessing was actually a curse
And what is success other than a compassion
Me vs me vs all of y’all