[Verse 1]
Yeah, depression is my enemy, feel I'm forever I'm stuck with it
Outsiders looking in and can't see I'm mentally strugglin'
So much on my plate, there's multiple things that I'm jugglin'
It all comes in waves, let my ship sink because I'm done with this
Hate my stupid ass ex, 'cause I don't know how to trust again
My selfworth is crumblin', try to walk but I'm stumblin'
They ask how I feel, I fight the tears, then I start stutterin'
I'ma keep it real, felt this for years and I'm still sufferin', damn
Someone tell me where's the day went
All on my phone, wow, this is how my day's spent
Wasted all this time and I can't get it back, but
I'll push it aside 'cause I break down and snap (Ahh)
I hate the way I feel, there's gotta be a better me
'Cause all of this pain people get a lesser me
These demons taunt me daily, they always get the best of me
I wish they die a slow death and don't rest in peace, yeah
[Chorus]
Thought I'd be better alone
Still tryna find somewhere to go
I've been stuck on this road, oh
So alone, by myself
Looked around, there's no one else
I'm alone, I'm alone, I'm alone, 'lone
[Verse 2]
Yeah, I miss my daughter every single day
Me and her mom went our seperate ways
And that's okay, 'cause we were hella toxic
But we're cool, happy and well
But I just hate sharing you, half a week hurts me like hell
I hate being without you, I keep thinking about you
The seperation's killing me, I'm incompleted without you
You're daddy's baby, you're my princess
If you need something, I'ma get it
Fuck the cost, 'cause I'ma spend it
Here forever, don't forget it, damn
I refrain from being vulnerable
'Cause when I do, I break down and get emotional
The PTSD strikes, it hurts the most
And when I do, I lose my top like a convertable
Every song I do is personal
This feeling's horrible
I wish I could just escape it
Waking up, gasping for air, I drown in my self-hatred
I hope that God has a plan at the end of what I'm going through
'Cause I have nobody I can turn to (Can turn to)
I just know I—
[Chorus]
Thought I'd be better alone
Still tryna find somewhere to go
I've been stuck on this road, oh
So alone, by myself
Looked around, there's no one else
I'm alone, I'm alone, I'm alone, 'lone