[Intro]
I used to be so pure (Pure)
Then the world turned me cold (Cold)
And my heart got froze, then my dope got rolled (Rolled)
And my eyes got low (Low)
Now everyday fades, every day I just zone (Zone)
Every night, I don't remember
But I'd rather burn out than get burnt by a soul
I don't even really know
I don't even really know

[Chorus]
It's all been a blur, yeah
Looking but I can't find
And I hear you but I can't see you here, yeah
I think I'm losing my mind
And no, no, I'm lost in the cure, yeah, yeah (Cure, yeah, yeah)
Looking but I can't find
I hear you but I can't see you here, yeah
I think I'm losing my mind
And no, no, it's all been a blur, yeah
Oh-woah, oh-woah, it's all been a blur
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh-woah, oh-woah, it's all been a blur (Yeah)
Oh, oh, oh, oh

[Verse 1]
I'm from the same place they made Lego hearts
But there's no love, love'll get you killed
A kill'll get you loved, that's the circle of life
Circle the block before we certain to light
Burning the pot, poppin' prescriptions just to feel a little number
Rolling deeper 'cause it's hotter in the summer
Smelling like potency with a pocket full of hunnids
Young kids did dumb things for the fuck of it
Yeah, I used to trap but I stopped
I ain't tryna get snatched by the cops, they already wildin'
So we be moving low like a semicolon
With some white girls, but I bet that them Kellys rolling
Shit, they just all love the buzz
I ain't tryna get caught up with drugs, I already did
But that shit is common where we grew from
Too many kids died way too young
I used to watch the homies flip pills, pop 'em and tell me
"Yo, these shits kill, don't ever take 'em", but I did
We was in the crib, levitating, facing death
But we hesitating for the thrills, yeah
I can't even feel no more
I don't even know what's real no more, man, its hard to tell
Pardon the smell, that's teen spirit
If you want a high, you should probably just breathe near it
It's too potent

[Chorus]
It's all been a blur, yeah
Looking but I can't find
I hear you but I can't see you here, yeah
I think I'm losing my mind
And no, no, I'm lost in the cure, yeah, yeah (Woah-woah, oh-woah, it's all been a blur)
Looking but I can't find (Oh, oh, oh, oh)
I hear you but I can't see you here, yeah (Oh-woah, oh-woah)
Think I'm losing my mind (Oh, oh, oh, oh)
And no, no, it's all been a blur, yeah
(Painkiller Paradise, Staten Island)
(20 pill a habit, cats are wildin)
(Painkiller paradise, Staten Island)
(20 pill a habit, cats are wildin)
(And no, no, I'm lost in the cure, yeah, yeah)

[Interlude]
Hoo, hoo
Hoo
Hoo, hoo, hoo

[Verse 2]
Birthdays start to mean less and less with the older I get
But I've been 40 years old since I was like ten so it ain't nothing to me
And fuck modest, I'm the hottest up in my fucking city
They know I be dumbin', ain't nobody close that's fucking with me
I used to eat people's scraps when they wasn't looking
Sleeping at friends' houses just to sneak up in they kitchen
And now I'm tryna figure out where these couple stacks went
They passed the J and said, "Try it"
I been fucking smacked since
I don't move was past-tense
Fast forward, they ain't near Lou
I don't look in the rear view, if I die I'ma crash forward
'Cause the girl I love don't feel the same
But I can't even feel no pain
No more, I been numb to shit since I was like a fucking kid
Painkiller Paradise raised me, I was just bound to go crazy
Wanted to bounce and never come back to this shit
Left and realized nowhere else could capture the feeling
Of having your back to the wall and still be attached to the ceiling
Everyone I know's a pothead
Poppin' prescriptions like Xanax
All of these drugs that's around me, how could I not be a manic?
How could I not be in panic?
Paranoia had found me when I was high as fuck
Tryna figure out something to ground me
So move the fuck from around me, I don't trust nobody
I gave my heart to them and never got it back, I gotta snap
I heard a lot of raps and a lot of wack shit, I let it rock
Now I'm finna' pop
Bitch I'm top 10 dead alive
I'm really never home, I'm always on the go
And If I'm not, then I'm always in the zone
I got some shit at Matt's crib I'll probably never wear
Couldn't fit packing
I live in different cities like a catfish
I gave my life to rap, I can't get it back
All this time I spend, I went missing, it's not ticking back
Wish I picked a different path
I overthink for a hobby
The staff hate us, spilling drinks while we stink in the lobby
You hit me right when I drop, man
You making it obvious what your motives are
I been tryna to cope with stardom, promise I'll be known a martyr
I got a lot of sons, I should check up on more
But fuck all y'all
I'm screaming out "Who want war?"
Fuck an empty threat
You was off since the day we met
Mad because you lost a queen
Boy, I'm playing mental chess
And the sad thing is, we did a couple songs
I fuck with you, dawg, I still got love for you you, dawg
But love'll kill you, so I'm mindful of who I say "I feel you" to
I don't feel you dudes, I feel you food
I mean I'll steal your food right up off your dish
I mean your mouths full, you was always talking shit
But nevermind that
You tryna find Rack, I'm tryna' find stacks
And fast, 'cause I know I cannot buy the time back
I'm tryna buy my mom a house I couldn't buy dad
Voices in my head, I'm either crazy or it's my dad
Having dreams about Cobain and Mike Jack
Asking me how I write raps, I just tell 'em I type facts, yeah
My dad was type black
And my mom is type white so the gray's where I'm at
Real growth comes from losing your mind
Fuck other people's definition of what's wrong and what's right
I was 11 years old and all I wanted to do was just write
And teachers told me it's wrong
I guess I'm wrong, it's aight
In the dark, I'm the light
We be sparking at night
Don't believe what you saying, man, you was hardly the type
You make songs for the hype, I make songs of my life
My hearts on the sleeve of a shirt I haven't worn in a while
And y'all all in denial, yeah
Old rappers, I'm pushing the culture forward
You wanna just go backwards
Lil' dough got you all backwards
Money can't change me
Never home till I go crazy, bitch