[Verse: 1 isuppose]
I was looking through Facebook, then I got a message
From some girl named Sarah, she was 19 and pregnant
She wanted advice, 'cuz her dark nights were restless
Confused and depressed, she could feel the Devil's presence
But let's go back 8 months when her boyfriend was locked up
She was having sex with her ex and they never used a condom
And her boyfriend got outta jail and she got knocked up
Not sure who was the daddy but she didn't wanna get caught up
So she told 'em the truth, how she was addicted to meth
She would kicking it with her ex, he forced her to have sex
She described it as rape, the way he penetrated her flesh
Submissive to the drug, she had no power left
What she would do for a hug, her man showed her no respect
All she wanted was love, but she contemplated death
Then the only remedy was the smell of tweak on her breath
She was on her path to hell, taking some large steps
And as I listened to her story I get this pain in my heart
So I asked a few questions and she took me back to the start
When she was 3, her mother left her, tore her family apart
Mama was a needle addict, daddy didn't care at all
So she smokes to numb the pain, it's been days since she slept
But since Sarah got pregnant, she had to put the pipe to rest
She wrote down deep rhymes to get the stress off her chest
And I swear I almost cried when I heard what she did next
[Hook: Carolyn Rodriguez]
You run away, and try to numb the pain
'Cuz when you've lost your faith
And what remains is just a piece of who you used to be
So abused, bruised and beat
''?''
[Verse: 2 isuppose]
She was 4 months pregnant, aggravated with life
Her bright days turned dark, her heart was blind to the light
She was sad and confused, couldn't make it through the stripe
Had nobody to turn to, so she turned to the pipe
She smoked crystal for two months, hardly ever missed a night
Every day she battled demons, these times she lost the fight
She had a baby in her stomach, then she gripped the pipe's sight
And hailing death, every hit was a sacrifice
But she kept it a secret, she was fucked up mentally
Neglected her soul, 'cuz her inner self was her enemy
So she turned to the music, favourite rapper was REVERIE
She used to bump her songs and used it as life therapy
But things got worse after a few small breaks
Now she's back to smoking glass, white smoke on her face
Now she's 8 months pregnant, still no hope of faith
She feels like she'll never survive her cold days
There's a blizzard in her heart, slowly killing her child
Now sitting, wondering if Sarah will ever get to see her smile
As she's telling me the story I, pause for a while 'cuz she just got done smoking and her mind's running wild
And a part of me wants to throw her ass of a building
But I was an addict too, so I understand the illness
So I told her how I felt and I gave her nothing but the realness
And made it into a song, so that everyone could feel this
[Hook: Carolyn Rodriguez]
You run away, and try to numb the pain
'Cuz when you've lost your faith
And what remains is just a piece of who you used to be
So abused, bruised and beat
''?''
[Verse: 3 isuppose]
''Dear Sarah, I'm sorry but just know you're not alone
And I know its tough when you gotta survive on your own
To be honest I was kinda mad when we spoke on the phone
It broke my heart knowing you were pregnant and still getting blown
I was an addict too, and I know it's hard to take control
But you're about to have a baby so think with your heart and soul
There's moms who lose their babies never get to see them grow
I could've lost my life too when I was four years old
You gotta take care of yourself, do it for your son
Do it for everyone who believes you can become, a great mother
You see your mom decided to run
So don't give your the kid the pain your mom gave you when you were young
You're doing a few weeks, I wish your baby could help
'Cuz you were blessed with an angel, yet you put him through hell
Everytime your baby kicked, he was asking for help
And you were selfish everytime, only thought about yourself
But I didn't write this song to try to make you feel guilty
'Cuz we all make mistakes, I just hope that you feel me
See it's never too late to cleanse the soul when it's filthy
I'm just trying to help you kill the drug that wanted to kill me
And this song is probably gonna get hated on by many
The ones who don't understand what it's like to feel empty
But I'm here if you need me, until then, God bless your soul
And God bless your son
Love always
- isuppose''
[Hook: Carolyn Rodriguez]
You run away, and try to numb the pain
'Cuz when you've lost your faith
And what remains is just a piece of who you used to be
So abused, bruised and beat
''?''
