How can I get any rest?
Thinking about how it could change
This weighs on my mind
Staring at the sun until I go blind
Why am I stuck like this?
There's no way to come back
I feel the same after years passed
Hurt doesn't end, it's all I am

One word is all it takes
For someone to decide if it's time to leave
If I just answered the call
I might not have to grieve
I know it's wrong
To have these thoughts
It's so fucking hard living with regret
I never wanted it to amount to this
A monument to a life of what ifs

What could I change
What the fuck could I say?
All the pain I wish I could take
I just needed another day

Do you know how that feels?
Staring at the knife
Wishing I could take back a life
Why the fuck does this deal have to be sealed?
Do you know how it feels?
Do you know how it feels?

I heard it over and over again
That this was the last day
A thousand things in my head
That I never got the chance to say
I'm not a man of God but I started to pray
Just hoping in that place that she's okay

I try to get better
But what can I really do?
I lost my mind losing you
Now everything feels new

The time takes its toll on me
I don't even know what to believe
I know you didn’t want to be here
You made that so clear
I'd do anything
To bring you back if I could
All the tears and all the years
Believe me, I would