Sense of Unknowing

[Chorus:]

I’m so lonely
But not when you hold me…
Don’t leave me
We’ll go down this journey
Wondering bout these times
And bout my internal crimes
I’m hoping
That’ you’ll keep blossoming
It’s a sense of unknowing
That constantly haunts me…

[Verse:]

You see I don’t understand all of the shit that plagues me
Because of my dumb flaws and idiosyncrasy
I honestly try and see it from the other’s viewpoints
But at the same time I’m not with these new joints
I try to be simple keeping minimalistic
Cause these societal expectations aren’t realistic
My dad says changing for people’ll get you hurt
And no matter the debating he’ll always reassert
Changing is an option, even if it’s a bad one
That leaves much to desire and no true guerdon
I live in a state of sadness, because of these opinions
While others gang up on me like a group of minions
Society’s a joke, but this shit ain’t funny
Trying to buy friends, better get that new money
Some style and popularity is based on possessions
So people sit their room for days long sessions
Preparing to be “fresh”, preparing to be cool
But deep down they know inside they play a fool
Y’know 28% of people will get bullied
So why won’t you go out and do a good deed?
Stand up for the kid who looks like he’s in distress
Just a few words and you can make his pain less
It sickens me sometimes the way we treat ourselves
Taking a book’s uniqueness and putting it on shelves
We should value our differences, that’s what makes us special
Let’s travel on a voyage, I’ll bring the vessels
But I got off topic, I do that a lot
I don’t wanna constrict ya, don’t wanna be a garrote
It’s the fact there’s a lot i need to get off my chest
So in a lot of regards I don’t give yall any rest…
But then again, it’s the same for me, in a lot of ways
I’m a bubbling cauldron, that’s constantly ablaze
I try to be normal, but normal ain’t Cam
Cam’s just tryna talk by spitting epigrams
Hoping that people’ll notice, hoping that they’ll mind
While isolation gives me a cage that I seem to bind
So while I’m stuck, thinking on my life, wondering deeply
Whether it’s all worth it, whether it ends sweetly
I make music for my benefit, it’s great therapy
But at the same…

[Chorus:]

I’m so lonely
But not when you hold me…
Don’t leave me
We’ll go down this journey
Wondering bout these times
And bout my internal crimes
I’m hoping
That’ you’ll keep blossoming
It’s a sense of unknowing
That constantly haunts me…

[Verse:]

So what If I can’t swing dance, that doesn’t really matter
What If I’ve got these feeling I’m just trying to besplatter…
I’m hopeless, in some sense of the word
But my emotional longing isn’t undeterred
I want someone to talk to, someone to share my day with
Or maybe that old fashioned shit’s just a dumb myth
I see these old movies, and I understand it’s fake
But that in the rain kiss is something that I’d gladly take
Cause relationships only seem to plauge the more fortunate
Evolutionarily perfect with that demeanor so importunate
I’m sorry I’m not 6’2” and captain of the football team
And don’t have a Mercedes Benz with lights so bright agleam
I’m a meek old sophomore, who often skips leg day
But maybe I’ll grow, liken to those old flowers in May
If not, you’ll be stuck with this Camlove
Who can’t take a punch and can definitely not take a shove
With ranting aside, you’re prolly sick of me being lovesick
But heartbreak does that to you, like a beating from a nightstick
Maybe I’ll find someone who appreciates me
If not, then I guess…

[Chorus:]

I’m so lonely
But not when you hold me…
Don’t leave me
We’ll go down this journey
Wondering bout these times
And bout my internal crimes
I’m hoping
That’ you’ll keep blossoming
It’s a sense of unknowing
That constantly haunts me…