Woke up in the morning and started my day off with a prayer
I can’t see God but I know that he’s there
Could face the devil but today I’m not scared
It’s hard having a good heart
And it’s harder to care
My grandmas praying for me
I know my guardian angels is here
Doing what I love in hopes my negative thoughts will disappear
Cause there’s nothing I want more than happiness this year
I feel like I’m getting nowhere laying in my own tears
This morning I decided to live my life differently
Came to terms with the fact people won’t love me for infinity
My people got there own problems so I don’t ask for no sympathy
I woke up early in the morning feeling hurt instantly
Today I want that to change I’m done living in misery
I have to get my self together for the sake of the Guidry’s
I don’t know nothing
This is what I get for writing raps in history
Wonder who loves me but won’t spend my whole life solving mysteries
All the effort I put in for nothing is what’s hitting me
Had to go through hell just to set myself free
I’m doing everything I can to stop the negative thoughts
It’s hard when no one sees you’re going through a lot
I need to move forward from all the problems that I got
It’s true God has a plan for me but I must’ve forgot
I don’t deserve pain
I don’t deserve to suffer
Bad things can happen to the non fighters that are lovers
When I’m gone just look out for another
All this time I didn’t call on God like I didn’t have his number
I think out of everyone I had one of the saddest summers
And it only got worse from there
Today I’m forcing myself to be happy
I don’t care
Start focusing on who’s here instead of who’s it there
Maybe I can’t solve all my problems with a simple prayer
Ok
I’m strong I can get through anything anywhere
Doing what I can to have good days in this hard life
I’m not the only one who knows what real pain feels like
I’m always gonna be the bigger person and do what’s right
Uh
I hope God doesn’t sleep cause I say the most at night
Times get hard but I know that everything will be alright
None of my heartbreaks were able to turn me bitter
Had some suicide thoughts but I ain’t no damn quitter
I know the devil is chasing after me but God is quicker
I’m having mind battles, war in the mind
I need the positive to leave the negative behind
It’s so hard to live with both of them combined
It’s like ignore every sign that was supposed to protect me from dying
They say quit being sad all the time
And believe me I’m trying
It’s no fun feeling like this everyday
It gets tiring
I keep losing mind battles
But I’m gonna keep fighting