Verse 1:
I remember when I first grabbed that pen
Told myself that I was gonna win
Went back at it again and again
My friend told me she cared for me
I didn't understand cuz no ones ever cared for me
I just wanted to grow up be an inspiration
Everyday I show love and appreciation
I just ask for a little in return
They say you live and you learn but the life I live will burn
Fire will flame up in hazes and life will turn to mazes
My heart already has that burning sensation
I don't know if it's love or hate
Either way my mind can't relate
Just want to die and come back again
Restart life like I wasn't here in the beginning
My friend tells me one day i'll be winning
I tell her everyday I feel like i'm sinning
She tell me shut the fuck up get on your feet
Normally i'd get mad but she's right I need to get out the streets
I'm used to bullets going past my face
Working on mixtapes while working on my mistakes
Motherfucker i'm in this daze I need to get out this maze
I'm tripped up but I ain't even high
All my friends died believe me I cried
I apologize when I do nothing wrong
I realize that that's why I put it in songs
Girls take off their leggings bust out thongs
I ain't even thirsty tho I just want the bongs
Really though I rarely smoke
But i'm sick of being broke take this cash shove it down my throat
Don't care if I choke at least I won't be broke
They been doubted me since day one
I'm the Chiraq prince and i'm on forums
Rap Genius you know i'm frequent
Rappad that's shits decent
Made it out the hood ain't that convenient
Even in the burbs kids is still fightin
Out at night with nice lightin
You can see your enemy face to face
Little did I know my enemy between a rock and a hard place
Kids out here be false flagging
Bathroom stalls graffiti that's fale tagging
I sold dope since I was 9
Sat out there with David holding that 9
Bust some rhymes to pass the time
But when shit popped off we commited the crime
Chicago 71st my street
The street my momma would go for her streets
See her in them boarded up windows
Daddy gone but she ain't no widow
Came back got me to my grandmas
Waking up had blood on my pajamas
No need for details just know i finna prevail
Tell them labels hit up my email
Cuz I ain't goin without a fight
Been in the dark now I see the light
Been in the night here comes the sun
Yet I still hear barrel drums of guns
It don't matter where you was raised
Just as long as you make the best out your life
I fucked up my life they told me you'll never have a wife
Believe me I believed them
Still do but that's besides the point
You know I resided in that joint
Not a long sentence but it's good enough
Some say I'm not hood enough
Some say I rep the hood too much
I just let myself be the judge
Cuz out here I just do me
Never let them thots screw me
Cuz I'm looking for a real woman
One who's down wit my program
She wants her life to be better and so do I
But then one of us gets high while the other dies
We both cry