Mary sat musing on the lamp-flame at the table
Waiting for Warren. When she heard his step
She ran on tip-toe down the darkened passage
To meet him in the doorway with the news
And put him on his guard. "Silas is back."
She pushed him outward with her through the door
And shut it after her. "Be kind," she said
She took the market things from Warren’s arms
And set them on the porch, then drew him down
To sit beside her on the wooden steps

"When was I ever anything but kind to him?
But I’ll not have the fellow back," he said
"I told him so last haying, didn’t I?
‘If he left then,’ I said, ‘that ended it.’
What good is he? Who else will harbour him
At his age for the little he can do?
What help he is there’s no depending on
Off he goes always when I need him most
‘He thinks he ought to earn a little pay
Enough at least to buy tobacco with
So he won’t have to beg and be beholden.’
‘All right,’ I say, ‘I can’t afford to pay
Any fixed wages, though I wish I could.’
‘Someone else can.’ ‘Then someone else will have to.’
I shouldn’t mind his bettering himself
If that was what it was. You can be certain
When he begins like that, there’s someone at him
Trying to coax him off with pocket-money,—
In haying time, when any help is scarce
In winter he comes back to us. I’m done."
"Sh! not so loud: he’ll hear you," Mary said

"I want him to: he’ll have to soon or late."

"He’s worn out. He’s asleep beside the stove
When I came up from Rowe’s I found him here
Huddled against the barn-door fast asleep
A miserable sight, and frightening, too—
You needn’t smile—I didn’t recognise him—
I wasn’t looking for him—and he’s changed
Wait till you see."

"Where did you say he’d been?"

"He didn’t say. I dragged him to the house
And gave him tea and tried to make him smoke
I tried to make him talk about his travels
Nothing would do: he just kept nodding off."

"What did he say? Did he say anything?"

"But little."

"Anything? Mary, confess
He said he’d come to ditch the meadow for me."
"Warren!"

"But did he? I just want to know."

"Of course he did. What would you have him say?
Surely you wouldn’t grudge the poor old man
Some humble way to save his self-respect
He added, if you really care to know
He meant to clear the upper pasture, too
That sounds like something you have heard before?
Warren, I wish you could have heard the way
He jumbled everything. I stopped to look
Two or three times—he made me feel so queer—
To see if he was talking in his sleep
He ran on Harold Wilson—you remember—
The boy you had in haying four years since
He’s finished school, and teaching in his college
Silas declares you’ll have to get him back
He says they two will make a team for work:
Between them they will lay this farm as smooth!
The way he mixed that in with other things
He thinks young Wilson a likely lad, though daft
On education—you know how they fought
All through July under the blazing sun
Silas up on the cart to build the load
Harold along beside to pitch it on."
"Yes, I took care to keep well out of earshot."

"Well, those days trouble Silas like a dream
You wouldn’t think they would. How some things linger!
Harold’s young college boy’s assurance piqued him
After so many years he still keeps finding
Good arguments he sees he might have used
I sympathise. I know just how it feels
To think of the right thing to say too late
Harold’s associated in his mind with Latin
He asked me what I thought of Harold’s saying
He studied Latin like the violin
Because he liked it—that an argument!
He said he couldn’t make the boy believe
He could find water with a hazel prong—
Which showed how much good school had ever done him
He wanted to go over that. But most of all
He thinks if he could have another chance
To teach him how to build a load of hay——"

"I know, that’s Silas’ one accomplishment
He bundles every forkful in its place
And tags and numbers it for future reference
So he can find and easily dislodge it
In the unloading. Silas does that well
He takes it out in bunches like big birds’ nests
You never see him standing on the hay
He’s trying to lift, straining to lift himself."

"He thinks if he could teach him that, he’d be
Some good perhaps to someone in the world
He hates to see a boy the fool of books
Poor Silas, so concerned for other folk
And nothing to look backward to with pride
And nothing to look forward to with hope
So now and never any different."

Part of a moon was falling down the west
Dragging the whole sky with it to the hills
Its light poured softly in her lap. She saw
And spread her apron to it. She put out her hand
Among the harp-like morning-glory strings
Taut with the dew from garden bed to eaves
As if she played unheard the tenderness
That wrought on him beside her in the night
"Warren," she said, "he has come home to die:
You needn’t be afraid he’ll leave you this time."

"Home," he mocked gently

"Yes, what else but home?
It all depends on what you mean by home
Of course he’s nothing to us, any more
Than was the hound that came a stranger to us
Out of the woods, worn out upon the trail."

"Home is the place where, when you have to go there
They have to take you in."

"I should have called it
Something you somehow haven’t to deserve."

Warren leaned out and took a step or two
Picked up a little stick, and brought it back
And broke it in his hand and tossed it by
"Silas has better claim on us you think
Than on his brother? Thirteen little miles
As the road winds would bring him to his door
Silas has walked that far no doubt to-day
Why didn’t he go there? His brother’s rich
A somebody—director in the bank."

"He never told us that."

"We know it though."

"I think his brother ought to help, of course
I’ll see to that if there is need. He ought of right
To take him in, and might be willing to—
He may be better than appearances
But have some pity on Silas. Do you think
If he’d had any pride in claiming kin
Or anything he looked for from his brother
He’d keep so still about him all this time?"

"I wonder what’s between them."

"I can tell you
Silas is what he is—we wouldn’t mind him—
But just the kind that kinsfolk can’t abide
He never did a thing so very bad
He don’t know why he isn’t quite as good
As anyone. He won’t be made ashamed
To please his brother, worthless though he is."

"I can’t think Si ever hurt anyone."

"No, but he hurt my heart the way he lay
And rolled his old head on that sharp-edged chair-back
He wouldn’t let me put him on the lounge
You must go in and see what you can do
I made the bed up for him there to-night
You’ll be surprised at him—how much he’s broken
His working days are done; I’m sure of it."

"I’d not be in a hurry to say that."

"I haven’t been. Go, look, see for yourself
But, Warren, please remember how it is:
He’s come to help you ditch the meadow
He has a plan. You mustn’t laugh at him
He may not speak of it, and then he may
I’ll sit and see if that small sailing cloud
Will hit or miss the moon."

It hit the moon
Then there were three there, making a dim row
The moon, the little silver cloud, and she

Warren returned—too soon, it seemed to her
Slipped to her side, caught up her hand and waited

"Warren," she questioned

"Dead," was all he answered