I Won't Let You Win

[Verse 1: Tabanacle]
I be chasing dreams, my only wish to live them up
My friends told me, I should walk away and give them up
But where was they when I was down and on my own
When they supposed to be around just to help me out and pick me up
Them nights I couldn't sleep, I never had a home to go
Feeling like I couldn't breathe, the tears used to overflow
This pain I felt inside hurts in ways that no one knows
Clutchin' to the painkillers, thinking I should overdose
'Cause no one help me close, and show me how is love
So I tried to find happiness in drugs man, that's all real
In tough times had me feelin' it's enough
From the bottom man, the only way is up, right
I just wanna love time
I remember days in that lunch line
Thinking I just wanna get away from this dumb life
I used to cry because no one understood
Had me feelin' like no one ever could
So I sat there with my books
And every night and night I felt my anger rising up
Nothing gonna stop me now, I feel I'm growing wise enough
'Cause I can handle all the pressure that this life becomes
Use it as a weapon every time I feel to write what's up
[Hook: Rosie]
Fake friends and bitch ass calls
Deep pain that no one knows
Everything I did, I did for my own
Red wine and an overdose
Lord knows I came so close
But I won't let you win I won't let you win

[Verse 2: Don Jaga]
Everything that I did man I did for us
We were a team chasing dreams but some didn't trust
The vision, the mission our families were one with us
Addictions transitions mislead us till we self destruct
I saw my brother from another lose his mind to drugs
Got deported locked up feeling mad as fuck
Even though he got the love and support acted like he didn't have a lot breaking every law what for?
Nobody really knows what you go through?! No!
Some people ain't loyal or grateful, love being hateful or spoilt
It's disgraceful, no excuses though, nobody's perfect
He without sin let him cast the first stone so what I'm really saying's leave the bullshit alone
Dun know I'm a keep it real with you even if you don't with me
I'm a do this on my own for family you see

[Hook]
Fake friends and bitch ass calls
Deep pain that no one knows
Everything I did, I did for my own
Red wine and an overdose
Lord knows I came so close
But I won't let you win I won't let you win
Dark Place

[Interlude: Rosie]
I've been driving
I've been taunting while writing
Drowning in the sirens, sometimes we let them take over
I've been drinking
I suffocate in overthinking
Now I'm surrounded by these demons
And, I let them take over my head, my head

[Hook: Rosie]
It's a dark place for the weak minded
Tryin' stay grounded in the city of silence
Tryn' find a peace when the war is inside me
Tryn' find a peace when the war is inside me

[Verse 1: Tabanacle]
We watch the sun rise
We watch the sun fall
But I just wanna live to see the day that my son calls
'Cause I ain't never had a father or an uncle
To guide me on my path, on the way through this jungle
'Cause I've been cast up in the shadows of my own
Nothing left for writing verses in this battle for my soul
Taking pills and drinking vodka had me battlin' control
Smoking weed had me feelin' like an addict on my own
So I been dying to press the feeling like there's nowhere else to go
Nowhere else to turn to now, just me I'm on my own
And I'll probably die alone, so I struggle man to see it through
But it hurts when you put in work and they ain't seein' you
But being true don't really guarantee its spot
'Cause death's the only real true guarantee we got
Feeling' lost without a way but man that's something I don't want
So I've been crouching on my knees, and I been praying out for god
[Hook]
It's a dark place for the weak minded
Tryin' stay grounded in the city of silence
Tryn' find a peace when the war is inside me
Tryn' find a peace when the war is inside me

[Interlude: Rosie]
I've been driving
I've been taunting while writing
Drowning in the sirens, sometimes we let them take over
I've been drinking
I suffocate in overthinking
Now I'm surrounded by these demons
And, I let them take over my head my head