[Verse 1]
Dearest me
Thinking the days used to be
One day feeling sordid
Next day feeling morbid
Go to therapy, please
(Put me in the spotlight)
Now I'm weak
Clearing the ways I’m a freak
Bumming out, yeah I'm boring
But I feel more important
I'm not an enemy, please
One day you gon see me bloom

[Verse 2]
Blanking out for everyone who claiming I’ve awakened
Say your fucking c'est la vies. I be vacant
Sugarcoating every kind of lie all very blatant
Gangrene be ripping me up until I'm naked
Bringing up the heavy burdens deep in my depression
I know that I'm nauseous when I'm acting so impatient
Driving upstate, St. Vincent is adjacent
Swerving over there, forcing me to dedication
What the fuck is up with me
What the fuck is up with me
What the fuck is up with me, yeah bitch I don't know when I'll be released
Whywhy
Tried to hang myself in the woods with pure gloom
Fearing that I'd come out again, I’d assume
They would never give it a chance, all fumed, but I...
Promise that they’ll see me bloom

[Bridge]
Don't you tell me how I feel

[Verse 3]
Unlearning what I know
Unlearning what I know
I’ve heard that many times from my ex
Many fucking times until I thought I was aglow
A trope used to grow
Yet I'm feeling like I'm overthrown
Insipid writing in the frame, not for nothing though
I got aways to go, but it's fucking slow
I’m losing patience but I know I'm at a point below
Newly protege
Staring at the fucking painting of the bouquet
In my grandmother's house feeling outweighed
But I'm up the jump, bumping up, risque
And you know I'm up to play
Yeah I wouldn't have it any other way
But I'm feeling kinda nervous and ashamed
Shit be leading me astray
And I don't know if I'm okay

[Outro]
I don't know if I'm okay (x16)
Oh my god just shut the fuck up