[Chorus]
They ask me, Lian, why you waste your time?
I don't know if I did I’d be fine
Always sad all I ever do is cry
I stay tortured by the thoughts inside my mind
The chemicals inside they're not alright

[Verse 1]
At night I always contemplate my life
Fucking hate myself that's why I grab the knife
Need to numb all of my pain so I get high
I’ma take my life and float up to the sky
I know I'm selfish Momma please don't cry
Yeah Life's a game I just don't even really wanna play
Every single day is always just the same
I hate this fucking shit man I feel so stuck in place
I just have this feeling
Dunno why I feel this pain
But its never healing
This life so fucking crazy man it feels like I am dreaming
But It's like a nightmare 'cause I'm fighting all my demons
Yeah I’m fighting all my demons
Still trying to survive I can’t defeat them

[Bridge]
I'm always fighting to survive
Man I hate this fucking life
No, I don’t understand it
Don't understand it yah
You could never understand me x2
[Verse 2]
You could never understand me
I got a brain that wants to stop my heartbeat
I never feel okay I hate my anxiety
I'm trapped inside my mind please can you set me free
I don't understand why they always hate me
They Talking shit but it never really fazed me
But it hurts me when you say that
Lying to my face but I know that you don’t speak facts
Yeah I know that you don't speak facts
When you lie to me you make me fucking feel bad
Yeah you make me fucking feel bad
I notice when you're online but you don't text back yeah
Yeah you never fucking text back
I don't understand what's the fucking deal with that
You said you loved me but you tossed the little that we had
I fucking hate this shit just put me in a body bag
Now I feel fucking tired
Think I have the wrong brain
Needs to be rewired
I don't feel like me
I just wanna retire x2

[Chorus]
They ask me, Lian, why you waste your time?
I don't know if I did I'd be fine
Always sad all I ever do is cry
I stay tortured by the thoughts inside my mind
The chemicals inside are not alright x3