[Verse 1]
Lost all my money and I lost control
Lost all my friends and I lost my soul
It was october since I cried
I ain’t been sober since July
Did my new girl fall in love
Am I just a stepping stone?
Feel like hell when I’m at home
Feel this weight inside my bones
Hol' up, roll up, smoke up, I been falling ever closer
To the devil in my spirit, I can feel it, I can hear it
In the halls inside my home, in the dark when I’m alone
I ain’t picking up the phone I can’t lift a fucking bone
I got trauma, I got demons, I been bleeding, I been fiending
Tried to kill myself and failed, kinda pissed that I’m still breathin
I seen death and I seen pain, still remember all the screaming
Seen a body on the street, I ain’t understand the meaning

[Chorus]
I been waiting so long, (so long)
And I been feeling so gone, (so gone)
I been waiting so long, (so long)

[Verse 2]
We pulled Grandpa out the freezer, I remember that
I was making plans to see em when December passed
I don’t hold onto a lot because it never last
I been fighting, I been dying to escape the past
Shoulders aching from the casket that I carried off
Ain’t been sleeping, I been running from the scary thoughts
I been drinking, I been shutting my emotions off
Staying numb because I think I’m scared of going soft
I can’t feel a thing, I can’t feel a thing
Duckin' corners when I hear the sirens sing
Oh lord, barely recognize my face
Drag my knuckles through the walls and I’m begging to leave this place
[Chorus]
I been waiting so long, (so long)
I been feeling so gone, (so gone)