I dwell on my past
Dwell on my past
Sometimes i be happy
But it never last
Physically sick
Emotionally sad
I wanna quit
My girls look to they dad
So i still get up
Don't let them see me like that
And where would my demons
Can't let them see me like that
Always close till demons
It's easy like that
Alway's think that im good
Till i nut up and damn

Mixing lean with my Mountain Dew
Wouldn't think i'd ever hear em say
"Im proud of you"
Do you know what it feels like to have
Everybody doubting you
Well i do
Every second of my mafucking life
Hold up, one second
I think im losing my mind
Every second of my mafucking life
I've been contemplating dying
Suicide woah
Always been the black sheep
Always been the outcast
Made this song for the ones
Who knows something bout that
Yea, there's something special bout us
Yea
My life is a Reality Show
Hello im your host
For people whom hardly in my life
The one's who judge in my house
You watching me move by move
And if i slip up
Then that's coo by you right?
Uh that's probably what you prefer
And if it's stupid gone head, wait here

War in my head
There'll never be a truce
A lotta fakes around me
I always stay true
Grew up getting smacked around
Till i was black and blue
Now every demon that i face
Is mad abuse
They say it's only bruises
The pain on my skin
But it's sad i still feel them
It's permanent
Tell me why the pain killers
Don't kill the pain
Tell me why all these people
Smile in my face
But behind my back
They hate
Tell me why nobody cares
Til it's too late
And your laying in the grave
I don't have no plan to stay sane
They say the sun come after the rain
Come on, how long i gotta wait
I guess when your living in the fast lane
You can't expect no praise
Always been the black sheep
Always been the outcast
How can they be mad at me
For being who i am

My life is a Reality Show
Hello im your host
For people whom hardly in my life
The one's who judge in my house
You watching me move by move
And if i slip up
Then that's coo by you right?
Uh that's probably what you prefer
And if it's stupid gone head, wait here