Blue Strings II

[Verse I]

You should've seen that she was elegant, beautifully intelligent
'cause baby girl was perfect like no person I had ever met
And never could escape my mind, I would always make the time
In a world of open books to read she was my favorite line

Sending texts back and forth from morning 'til after dark
We played the same video games and attracted hearts
But the music took control, I could see it shook her soul
And what pushed her most were the folks that were stood up close...

Next to me, I thought it was destiny
But they were ingredients leading the wrong recipe!
So she had to fade away, said she couldn't take the change
Even though the grass only ever grows greenest on a rainy day

"And I performed a show up in Mass, man I didn't know
That baby girl had called me twice, damn, and I missed them both
And when I checked my voicemail, she left me two messages
The first one was nothing but this is what the second said….”

(Hook I)

She said, I wonder when it’ll be my day
‘Cause I’m not too far from breaking down
All I’ve got are screams inside
But somehow they come out in a smile
And I wonder if I’ll always feel this way, this way...

[Verse II]

Yeah, so right after my show I had to call her back
Been a few years since I saw her last
She told me ‘bout her life and what it meant to her
Said her friends were dead to her, Said her boyfriend mistreated and neglected her

That he’d lie and cheat on her, then she’d lie and cheat on him
Until they broke up, and that’s when it cut deep within
So she’d start to party more, sex, drugs & alcohol
Depression’s a disease and broken wings always have to fall

I really tried to help, but she blocked me out, We fought, but she knocked me down
And forced me to watch her drown with thoughts that were not allowed
I stressed she was incomplete, desperately in the need
Of a friend I wished was me...

"I’m feeling all alone, I hit her up, I knew I couldn’t give her up
I called her to apologize for all the times I wasn’t there with her
But her voicemail answered and my eyes started filling up
I took a deep breath and I spilled my guts, This is what I said…”

(Hook II)

Maybe you’ve fallen down
Maybe you just took the long way home
Baby, you could never love you, like me
And one day this will fade away
In the mirror you’ll see your smiling face
And standing next to you will always be me, yeah me

[Verse III]

Yeah, she didn't answer me, I hoped that she’d be there for me
But never could I've been prepared to see what appeared to me
I released my phone and collapsed upon the floor
As I read “Rest In Peace” all across her Facebook wall

Then her brother had returned her call, his words confirmed it all
Saw our years flash as each tear took it’s turn to fall...
It is still the worst pain I’ve ever felt
And worst of all she did it to herself!

I hate the fact she just abandoned us, this was not the plan for “us"!
In this life, You will lose everything you care to love
I can still feel her touch, leading towards what we built
Which is now deeply crushed underneath this very guilt

I was told, "Eternity will dwell upon the right and wrong decisions
The unexamined life is simply not worth living
So knowing that she wasn’t there I called her phone again
With a mouth full of pain relief and this is what I said”

(Bridge)

If I could shrink it down, and put it in your hands
We made it hurt so much, I can't forget the best
Just tell me what to say, show me what to do
Then I can forgive me, and I would forgive you

(Hook III)

Maybe you’ve fallen down
Maybe you just took the long way home
But baby, you will never love you, like me
And one day this will fade away
In the mirror you’ll see your smiling face
And standing next to you will always be me
You know it'll always be me, and I will wait...
Always be me 'til I see you smiling